I have been really thinking about creating a different persona in helping me really deal with my desires of being the opposite sex. I am talking about like creating emails and facebook accounts that just caters to me and my desire to be a woman like having a female name on FB and in my emails and everything that has to do with my female life just putting things on there. I feel like perhaps that will make me more comfortable with who I really am as a person living as a male but that is really supposed to be female.

Sure, go ahead. There are no downsides are there? o3o
I found it very annoying to see my male name everywhere I go, so I just made new accounts.
If nothing else, it helps me not to be reminded of my birth-gender all the time -w-

Many of us here do not use our real names. And I'm sure that many of us have created personas as a step in our journey. But please, do be cautious. Don't deceive anyone in on line love affairs until you can be honest with yourself. That will only lead to trouble.

Cindi

I just created a Facebook page as well as an gmail account with a female name. It just feels like that would be better when getting emails that have to do with who I really am and then save my male email address for my life as a guy.

I found that starting accounts on (non trans) forums with a female name allowed me to be myself. It was pretty useful at relieving some dysphoria - the only time it backfired (and this was some five years ago) was that I was so convincing as a female member of one forum that one of the main female moderator decided we were besties and wanted to Sykpe me. I panicked and dropped out of the forum. Sometimes the guys on other forums would hit on me too. The joys of being a woman!!!

I will join forums under that name and just be honest that I am a Transgender Woman that lives FT as a male but that I struggle all the time with the feelings about being a woman in my soul which is true. If people ask to Skype me or talk to me then I will just be honest. The problem is that I am not a bad looking guy (or at least that is what people tell me) and imagining myself as a woman I just can't imagine that. I would love to take a picture of myself in a wig and make up and all that but I suck even trying to do any of that.

I guess I would need a wig, lol

A friend of mine is a more butch type like you. As she is also into women, she identifies more with butch lesbians and dresses that way. But in real life, she is seen just as a guy. She feels due to being quite tall and masculine, she just can't pull off transitioning, and as she isn't very femme, she can't take the route of using very feminine style to make people see her female inside.

She is using female name and pronouns and has done some drag, even drag kinging. It's not easy for her but she is following her heart and doing her thing.

All the best to you!

Ad: I just read some of your other posts and realize that you want to transition physically. I want to clarify that I didn't mean that some people are "too butch" to transition or something. My freind decided not to transition physically, but of she could if she choose so. I wanted to share the information that there are all types of trans women out there, even those who are butch and do drag kinging, you know? So whatever your type, you can find your own style, and transition your own way.

Quote from: Sandy74 on September 20, 2015, 04:31:19 PM
I have been really thinking about creating a different persona in helping me really deal with my desires of being the opposite sex. I am talking about like creating emails and facebook accounts that just caters to me and my desire to be a woman like having a female name on FB and in my emails and everything that has to do with my female life just putting things on there. I feel like perhaps that will make me more comfortable with who I really am as a person living as a male but that is really supposed to be female.

sounds fun! I wish I had have left it at that. You should cross dress though too.

I would love to cross dress more and wear frilly things to work and dress in a dress or a skirt or something like that but I cannot afford to do that in my situation right now. I work seasonal work and I have a small car and have enough room for my ugly man clothes and my three set of skis and other gear and really not much room for a duffle bag full of feminine clothing though I am starting to think that I need to make room for them.

I usually go to places where I have a roommate in the same room as me so I cannot dress up and be femme which really sucks but perhaps someday I will just settle somewhere that I can be just me and dress up and go out and about in my real clothing rather than my clothing that I hate. I will gradually get there.

Quote from: Sandy74 on September 28, 2015, 02:32:29 PM
I would love to cross dress more and wear frilly things to work and dress in a dress or a skirt or something like that but I cannot afford to do that in my situation right now. I work seasonal work and I have a small car and have enough room for my ugly man clothes and my three set of skis and other gear and really not much room for a duffle bag full of feminine clothing though I am starting to think that I need to make room for them.

I usually go to places where I have a roommate in the same room as me so I cannot dress up and be femme which really sucks but perhaps someday I will just settle somewhere that I can be just me and dress up and go out and about in my real clothing rather than my clothing that I hate. I will gradually get there.

your work colleagues would not validate you as a woman would fight your gender decision. If you have a car I suggest changing in it(but keep safe! Don't want cop trouble) and then go shopping. This will give you an idea of how people react. You'll have good and bad experiences.

Crossdresing is great!

There is nothing wrong with going by two different names as I was forced to do it by the law when i transitioned. I couldn't change my legal paper work and therefore my bank account until I was post surgical. What a pain. The only time it becomes a problem legally is if fraud is involved. As you have no intention of committing fraud, I would say go for it.

I did this, doing it now w/ Allison. No trans chatroom, so I was Allison in lesbo chat. I passed too. Grad work in lit. had me looking at women writers, characters. Women often published as men. Women characters often had "male" traits. Easy to turn all that around, male as female.

Change your avatar in here, change your gender listing. I'm pretty much "really" Allison, here and there, FB, newspaper forums, other sites.

But mostly the big break from the angst, obsession, preoccupation . . . deciding that it's me and it's OK. I'm no longer juggling two persona. Less fragmented, more integrated, happier, more grounded, authentic.

Complex, colorful, complicated, diverse, many faceted -- but just ONE me.

Quote from: Sandy74 on September 21, 2015, 09:32:50 AM
I will join forums under that name and just be honest that I am a Transgender Woman that lives FT as a male but that I struggle all the time with the feelings about being a woman in my soul which is true. If people ask to Skype me or talk to me then I will just be honest. The problem is that I am not a bad looking guy (or at least that is what people tell me) and imagining myself as a woman I just can't imagine that. I would love to take a picture of myself in a wig and make up and all that but I suck even trying to do any of that.

I guess I would need a wig, lol

Hello Sandy!

I guess we are on a similar "stage" and If you want to try make up and wig, there is an app for phone that you can do it. I don't know if real makeup can do the samething, but it made me very pretty! Maybe it can give an up on your self-confidence, as it gave to me.

Bye!
Lilly