Hello everybody, this thread i guess is going to be a little different. But ......


On sunday it was my first day back at work after my GRS and i have to admite i was a little nerves because i was worried about how are they going to treat me now ? Is my job title going to change ? And how will the customers be ? All these questions wore playing on my mind even before i returned.. But when i got there. Everyone was great, asked me how my surgery went and what i got upto on my time off and so on.. The manager did put me onto light dutys which is great because at the moment my hormonal levels are still low.. But i have to amit that the jobs i was on it was like i was part time again and the manger was watching everything i was doing, which i hated.. But i kinda expected that to a degree.. Anyway half way through the day something clicked in my head and i couldnt stop thinking "what am i really doing" "this job isnt me" " i actually feel like im degrading myself by doing these things" Ok i know what you are thinking " its a job it pays bills. Just do it" and yes that is the way i used to think and because i did i didnt mind going to work because it is not exactly a hard job and there are good people there. But now after my second day there i just feel that i actually hate it now and i want to do something else worth wild and not just settle for what i have got.. So that is now what i am going to do. Im going to use the job i have got too help me finance a new career in a trade i want to do. It just takes time..

I guess the point of me telling all you lovely people this is because before my GRS my mind was clouded. With heartache from lost loved ones, full of disappointment from the NHS who kept promising appointments then canceling them and sorrow because i thought i would never be happy with my life and also forever stuck in dept. So staying in a job i hated was my only option.. But now after my GRS it is like my brain is free and clear and instead of my focusing on all the negatives that dysphoria produces, I can now focus on Life, creating a better life than i had, meet my lifes goals and be successful. And also help people who feel they need help.

I know that there are some people on here who do feel lost sometimes and it is hard. There is no doubt about that. I have been there myself. But if your patient and willing to fight. Your happiness is there too and you can be successful in whatever you deside aswell. Take the negitives of life and try to use them to your advantage just like i am.. And you will meet your life goals too and this doent just go for trans people but to all..

I hope this was an OK post but i just wanted to share this with all of you because you all have been there for me when i had questions and also when i was in dark times and for that i am forever greatful..

I hope everyone has a wonderful day/night and take care

❤ Lea

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I am glad to see that your work place was good towards you.  If you hate the job that much it is time to move on.

I had a job that I loved for 7 of the 8  months that I worked there, even though I got picked on every day. For the 8th and what turn out to be my last month I started pulling lame excuse sickies.  I had started to make mistakes and the cracks were appearing all over the place.  I felt it was better to jump on my terms than to be pushed.  There is no point in making yourself miserable.  We deserve more than that.

Anyway, wishing you a blessed week.

Quote from: leacobb on September 29, 2015, 06:29:31 AM
Anyway half way through the day something clicked in my head and i couldnt stop thinking "what am i really doing" "this job isnt me" " i actually feel like im degrading myself by doing these things" Ok i know what you are thinking " its a job it pays bills. Just do it" and yes that is the way i used to think and because i did i didnt mind going to work because it is not exactly a hard job and there are good people there. But now after my second day there i just feel that i actually hate it now and i want to do something else worth wild and not just settle for what i have got.. So that is now what i am going to do. Im going to use the job i have got too help me finance a new career in a trade i want to do. It just takes time..

I had my GRS 8 weeks ago and I am back at work too. I also feel that my job needs to change and I am using it to stack up some savings for a complete life change. I am an expert in my field (I should be after 30 years) and there is nothing I cannot tackle and that just makes it boring. I was waiting for my GRS because with it I am now free of doctors and the NHS - or considerably more than I was beforehand - and now options are opening up. In three years time I will be doing something absolutely totally different and I cannot wait.

Quote from: leacobb on September 29, 2015, 06:29:31 AM... full of disappointment from the NHS who kept promising appointments then canceling them

Oddly enough, I have to leave work in 6 minutes time to go for what I hope is my last NHS appt with the local shrink.

Quote from: leacobb on September 29, 2015, 06:29:31 AM
I know that there are some people on here who do feel lost sometimes and it is hard. There is no doubt about that. I have been there myself. But if your patient and willing to fight. Your happiness is there too and you can be successful in whatever you deside aswell.

I think some people focus so much on getting to GRS that after it is over they wonder "Now what?". Some even get depressed, so I think you are right to have a goal and an objective. I am sure it will all work out for you.

Go for it!

Within a year of SRS/transition in 1974 I realized I had a tremendous amount of energy, an ability to focus and concentrate like never before, and an ability to see anything through with a great determination. 'Problems' seemed easy to analyze and the optimum solution appeared quite evident.

I realized that this was all a result of the 'gender dysphoria' being resolved and the largest part of my mind and energy being freed up to focus on other things. That was GREAT for my career and I earned a reputation for "doing the impossible" and solving the unsolvable LOL!

Was it worth the price? I don't know - I have nothing to compare with 

Quote from: Northern Jane on September 29, 2015, 07:36:16 AM
I realized that this was all a result of the 'gender dysphoria' being resolved and the largest part of my mind and energy being freed up to focus on other things. That was GREAT for my career and I earned a reputation for "doing the impossible" and solving the unsolvable LOL!

Was it worth the price? I don't know - I have nothing to compare with 

This right here could be the case.

So glad to hear that you are making these kinds of discoveries, Lea. Money is important, but happiness moreso. If there is a better job out there for you that fits who you are as a person, and benefits you emotionally outside of the simple act of production, then the rewards will be worth the effort to find it. Good luck