So, I've been been lurking on here for a few months gaining as much knowledge as I could from everyone else's experiences. I finally found the courage to post and of course this is the first place I decided to post. My name is Emma Leah. I am a 34 year old female in the extremely early stages of transition. I know it will be a bumpy road but what road in the world doesn't have bumps right?

I'm unfortunately a bit of an introvert [emoji20] but I'm hoping to improve that situation in the near future. I ride a '77 KZ1000 motorcycle, I have two inside kitties to keep me company and I live so far out in the country that my driveway is a half mile long. I do enjoy my privacy but I don't enjoy the loneliness.

I had a hard time growing up in school being in a hick town of about 400 people. Everyone knew everyone. I knew when I was young that my body parts didn't match how I really was supposed to be. Dealing with the constant bullying, due to other circumstances, made it so hard to be myself I didn't bother trying. At that time I didn't even know there was a name for how I was feeling.

By the time I was in my early twenties I had a fiance and I put my feelings on hold for her until I couldn't stand it any more. After 4 and a half years I came out to her and she secretly decided to marry someone else. That burned me down to my core. I think that's when I became a recluse.

I still didn't know at the time the options available to me because I couldn't find anyone I felt comfortable enough to confide in. But I did start living the way I felt I should but only in private. Then along came, to me, a more accessible internet. I was like a vacume, sucking up all the information I could get my eyes on. Now at the age of 34 I have the steady job and income to start my first steps. Finding a good therapist, endo and primary doctor to get this giant ball of mine rolling along that bumpy road.

I am extremely happy to have found Susans Place. I'm hoping to find friends to travel, and hold hands with along our rigorous journey. I hope that some day I can be just as helpful as all of you have been [emoji4]

Emma Leah

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Hi Emma, Glad you found us and decided to join. Welcome to the family!

Welcome to Susan's Place. I was a big introvert but hanging around others like me helped break the walls down. Look around and see if there are threads you want to join. If you don't find what you want, start a thread of your own. We have around 700 people come on this web site every days so there will be no lack of people to carry on a conversation with.

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Hi Emma 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Welcome to Susan's

I am glad you found us and are underway on your journey.

Big warm welcome to Susan's Emma Leah

So right about life's little bumps xx

Introvert hey I was always a wilting flower, so introverted as I grew up, right through really, got so nervous being put on the spot or in a situation, certainly had some serious heartaches along the way too... I must admit going on HRT changed me heaps, especially in the not so introverted anymore bit 

Oh, by the way nice bike xx

I am glad you found us, and you'll find that sharing is a wonderful way of releasing any internal misgivings or any feeling of being alone.
Oh and thanks for the kind words.
Best wishes on your journey, hope you can find a therapist soon and get your journey on the road.

L Katy 

Emma,
     Welcome! I'm new here myself, and a motorcycle enthusiast as well.  I think you've found the best place in town.  I've been trolling around myself for years and have seen nothing but support here.  Good luck on your journey, and keep the rubber side down. .

Thank you ladies for the kind words and warm welcome! Honestly it feels odd for me to open up and talk about my issues, even with close family. I've always been shy when it comes to meeting new people, even online. I've always been full of doubt and uncertainty when it comes to other people  what they're thinking, if they're judging me in a positive or negative way. Once I warm up to some one though I just can't shut up ☺ If I don't talk much just give me an elbow nudge, I'll open up.

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