Morning All,

This seems like a trivial thing. It is just something I am curious about. Trying to lighten my mood up and thought I might ask about this.

Last spring as I was working my way through therapy and coming to grips with who I am, I kept thinking back to when I was much younger. It made me think about a lot of the songs from when I was younger (and then songs from later). I find myself listening to songs I always took to being a person singing to his girl to now being about me singing to myself when I was younger or maybe just singing to myself.

It then feels a little narcissistic.

Just curious if anyone else has had this sort of weird experience.

Thanks for your time,

Joanna

Hi Joanna:

While music impacted me differently than you, it was a huge part of my initial transitional milieu.  I know a few other MTFs who had music impact them as well.

I must have have re-listened to the complete works of the Eagles 1,000 times in five years and as I settled into my womanhood the music moved with me.  Ditto Carly Simon, many classical composers and the Beatles (there were others but these were the huge ones).  Ops, showing my age     !

Rachel

A few years ago when I hit my low point with all this I latched on to an Enigma song as a kind of personal centering anthem.  The lyrics just make me feel good and keep my perspective where I think it belongs

Return to Innocence
By Enigma

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.