Since I've been sort of awakened and coming to terms with who I am, I can't stop going back to birth... My parents were told by the doctor point blank that I would be a girl. No questions. This was in the late 80's too when tech wasn't quite as good as it is now. From what I understand, most doctors would only confirm boy if it had an obvious  dingaling and otherwise left as a question-mark. So what did they see in the ultrasound and tests that they were so convinced that I was a girl? And could something have happened after that point where my body got a different memo than the brain 

Seriously my parents and everyone were shocked, they didn't really even have a boy name picked out. It was later shared with me that my boy name was really just a customary name to make both of my grandpas happy. Which is ok, I am pretty proud of both of those gentleman, just making the point that it was very unexpected. Anyways, on here and where applicable in the future, I am choosing to go by the name that would have been given to me. Go figure.

First appointment with therapist tomorrow, so hoping to get some clarity. Maybe I'll ask her about the above? I am still apprehensive as to the process, and feeling a little anxious. Today feels like Christmas Eve, and I just want tomorrow to come already!!

K

Edit:
On the bright side I had all of last weekend to myself! I applied makeup for the very first time, wearing my favorite (pretty much only) outfit and wig. I can say, that is the first time I've ever looked into a mirror and really smiled at the person on the other side.

I had the same thing happen. My understanding is that my parents were told they were having a girl based on my heartbeat. I guess you could say I have a female heart. Lisa is the name I was supposed to have.

As for whether something happened in the womb...not only is that possible, but I suspect is quite likely the root cause of ->-bleeped-<- and intersex. As a baby is developing in the womb, various chemicals direct the development of the body parts including the genitalia. Persons with Complete Androgen Sensitivity (an intersex condition) for example were genetically male, but for some reason in the womb, the chemicals that would normally cause the development of "male" parts (Androgens) didn't work causing them to be born with "female" parts.

Female seems to be the default. So, in a way all MAAB persons were transgender before the Androgens caused their innie to become an outie. I suspect many/most of us (transwomen) were supposed to be girls, but something caused Androgens to be released, causing us to grow the wrong parts.

My brother had the ability to determine if a woman was pregnant and what gender her baby would be. He first used this ability on the land ladies daughter when she knew she was expecting but hadn't told her husband yet. A few years ago, one of the truckers in our yard brought his wife in to tell him the good news that he was going to have a boy. After the left, he told my mother "I don't know if I should tell them but they are going to have another girl". A few months latter, my brother was right and the doctors were wrong. Doctors still don't call them right all the time.

I am happy that you have made the first move into your new life and have a good day tomorrow. 

Interesting, so there could be something to it but maybe not. I won't worry about it then and just keep chugging along. It is an interesting twist of the plot wouldn't you say?   

Kelsey
I too tried with therapy to find what "happened" - Mum was abusing drugs/alcohol some, Dad not around.  I have distinct memories (confirmed by my sibs) I was dressed and raised as a girl first couple years of life.  Early surgery we never talked about - taboo.  Both folks long gone by the time I came out, and never confronted either about it.  Points this - I can speculate how I got to this day, but it cant be verified and it doesn't change anything.  The best part of your post was your Edit.  About the first time you liked the person looking back at you in the mirror.  THAT is something to build on!  Be proud and happy for yourself! 
xo - Holly   

I was the first born and was supposed too be a girl,too the point my mom went crazy buying baby girl clothes,too their surprise I was born a boy. My name is the male form of a feminine name I was going too have,I wore girls clothes til I was 3 and my dad put a stop to that and took me for my first-ever boy hair cut which I hated,but my dad was not going to have his boy look like a girl,and he went and taught me how too be tough,he tried teaching me what being male was supposed too be like. That failed for all I did was look like a female with a boys haircut. I've always been different but I learned too face adversity head on and just live life.