So my grandma is really excepting of me but whenever she mentions getting me like girly things or uses my girl name i get a odd feeling .my hard pounds and i get scared and say no and then i start to wonder if im really trans

is this normal and if so how long does it usually take to get ride of it

i want some of these items like cloths and bras so why do i get that feeling?

All your life you have been told it's wrong to have those things. You now have to learn there is nothing wrong with owning clothes like that and it's one of the things that will make you feel better about your self. One day soon you will have to make the decision to go full time and to do that, it will be best if you have some part time now.

As Dena said, its getting use to being you! It takes a bit of time. Just try and relax and go with the flow. It sounds as if you are in very safe accepting hands. It is very normal for your grandma to want to help you be happy and to give stuff to her grand daughter.

You are a very lucky girl!

I would of freaked out if my parents offered me clothes even though I so totally wanted them