Ok, so finally Im out to all my closest family members: My mother, father and now, my big brother know. They didnt get angry, explode at me or anything like that. They arent happy with me presenting female in their company, but they do respect my privacy of what girls clothes I keep and dont get angry at me (though its early days, Im hoping they can maybe adjust in time). Interestingly my brother actually put it to me that he doesnt care what it is, and though he doesnt necessarily understand it yet, he wants me to be happy.
With that, Ive finally felt able to relax in my own home and social circles more (no more fear Im gonna get outted when they all know, in fact for halloween I dressed up as a zombie schoolgirl haha). Ive softened my voice and mannerisms, I dont try to pretend to be anything, I openly express myself better and it helps a lot.
In other news, I just turned 24 today, and one of the biggest gifts was the relief that Im still loved. I didnt want anything material because I no longer have this secret that I was carrying around, concerned I was goin to take it to the grave.
