Do you think women (or in particular that woman) can guess my feelings (or to some degree)? By my feelings I also mean being a transgendered person.
Long story short: in the lab where I'm doing my PhD among the girls there is one (call her "M") who is very self – centered and would "step over a dead body" to reach her goal. Needless to say we aren't in the best of terms – although I try to be neutral.
A few days ago out of the blue she asked me how I felt, if I was happy and also told me she would like to know me "closer" and "more as a friend". (How I feel? Are you kidding me? It's so confusing even trying to think how to explain without getting into details). I just told her my feelings are everywhere (or something like that). She continued following days saying I "owe her an answer". Up to this point I have ignored her.
Over the past year there has been some change in how I present (somewhat long hair instead of crew cut, wearing girl jeans – not anything frilly, a couple of times wearing clear nail polish and "pal talk" with another girl ("D"). I haven't come out yet. Still, to some people it may be obvious I'm hiding something - not letting myself be actually me.
I was just wondering (not that it makes any difference) why the heck would that girl (M.) ask that thing. I told "D". about this (we talk about things as friends and I've expressed some "girlish" (kinda?) interests to her – talks about nails, about how I like what she's wearing, once ended up talking about prices in jeans) and she concurred that "M." is only kind when she needs something.