So unless the doctor doing SRS for Oregon Health Plan patients turns out to be a disaster, I'm going through with surgery. All that stands between me and the final step in my transition now is the obligatory electrolysis; the doctor says we can set a date for my surgery when that's done.
Friday I'm going in for a consultation for the electrolysis. I'm in the home stretch now. I can still back down but I don't want to!
I'm feeling such tremendous relief now that I've stopped agonizing over this decision! I felt so much relief just knowing it was an option now, because I had tried to make myself not want it when I thought it was out of my reach. But finally coming to terms with the decision to move forward has put my stress levels at what I can only describe as an all-time low.
I feel like I'm finally living for once and not simply letting life happen to me.
Did anyone else feel this way when you finally made up your mind to go forward, or when the chance finally presented itself?