I'm as transitioned as I ever want to be; I'm really proud of what I have considering I was an ugly child haha; I had big jam jar spec and over ear hearing aids (I'm almost completely deaf btw but I have small in ear ones now and I can hear OK, but without them in I'm as deaf as a post and can't hear anything) but now I'm a slim size 8, I love my body and I'm really happy with how my looks have turned out from HRT so with that behind me to a point so I'm looking forward to living a normal life. I'm married now and have a gorgeous wife and son and I'm in a good place. I'm so close to finishing my teacher training and looking for full time jobs, my wife is retraining in a new profession after years in retail, I'm looking forward to starting my career after wanting to be a teacher all my life and overcoming a few hurdles to get there. With being hard of hearing it makes controlling a class hard work as if there's multiple people speaking or noise around me I find it impossible to understand what people are saying so I've had to learn to manage that. I'm working with a local charity that's going nationwide soon to promote the installation of the loop system in schools to help kids that are hard of hearing.
I'm always driven to succeed; yeah I have bad days but one day I dream of designing and building a home for us (My degree is Product Design with a Qualified Teacher Status, so I teach Design & Tech in school but I'm a qualified designer by trade) and I'm always looking at new build houses to get ideas. We are putting our house for sale soon to move to a bigger one; we've lived here 13 months and I've totally re-modelled it and installed a new kitchen, bathroom, floors etc and loved every minute. I strive for perfection in everything I do so making the house perfect is what I want to achieve.
Also I dream to one day own a Ferrari. I'm very very lucky to achieved what I have in my 21 years because I have been able to do so much; I've worked very hard but been very lucky too. I dreamt of owning a Range Rover and for my 20th birthday I bought myself one; a 2004 Vogue Td6 in Bonatti Grey with Sandstone leather. It was beautiful but really unreliable so I traded it for my 2008 Volvo XC70 D5. I'm lucky to have had a Rangie though but one day the ultimate dream would be a Ferrari F430 Spider. They are still £70,000 odd right now but they are climbing again! If I ever get one I'll be happy.
But in reality, all that is material. What I'd really like is to make amends with my parents. I walked out at 16 because I was silly and because they didn't accept my gender and me for who I was straight away I left and lived on my own. I've seen them 4 times in the last 5 years (all at family funerals) but I occasionally talk to my Dad on the phone but he insists on using my old name and male pronouns. I think it's because they don't understand and have limited life experience in terms of LGBT people; they didn't get their heads round it in the 10 mins I gave them and I stormed out. I shouldn't have done it, maybe if I had been more mature about it I'd have been able to share the last 5 years with them; I've met an amazing girl and like I say, we are married now, they have a Grandson they have never met etc etc. There's so many times I'd have liked them with me (getting married really did it for me) that I'd love to try and make amends and fix my mistakes. I'm older and wiser now and 100% complete and clear on who I am and what I want. When I was 16, I flew off the handle, let emotions run away with me and was too stubborn for my own good. I just hope I can fix it one day and they can accept me as their daughter.
