I am really nervous that she will say no and i feel like it is a complete waste of time. I found an endo, the only one in omaha nebraska who will prescribe hormones, and i have an appointment scheduled for January 22. Sounds good right. Not really because i feel that there is no way she will write the letter. I am feeling really bad right right now. I am scared that she will say no and i don't know what i will do. I'm bipolar and i know why i am bipolar. It is because this girl is trapped in a male body. I am having really bad thoughts right now. I know that i could make someone a happy husband someday, but i'm not sure that day will come. I really don't think that i should have set the appointment for the endo, but that day is the day for one thing or another. Wish me luck everyone.