It's a bit extreme, but I know I been dead for the past 10 years, since as a community we kind of agree, if you wait until the end of life... you never live life. So, in retrospect, even waiting 10 years since I became a guy, I kind of died... and live in a shell of a human.

I want to start transitioning this year, especially now that I know I won't get kick of out my job for being transgender (it's a grey area; but they can't do anything about it if they question it). I won't go full-time, or what not, but just want to be female in personal life.

My issue, my family, it's always been my issue, but I don't even want to tell them I am transgender. I feel like once I tell them, it will be surreal, what is the best way to tell them... and not deal with all the drama. I hate drama. I kind of feel like it would be easier, if I tell them that I disown them... which I could do if they don't accept me. But I don't want to see them in person, once I do it. I gone a year without seeing them, and I was at my happiest away from them.

I wasted 10 years for "family" In the end, all that you can do is be yourself. Anyone who doesn't support you needs to be removed from your life.