You are young and the transition is slow and difficult. Even if you had T today it might be a year or two before you see the results you expect. I was born male and mostly it damaged my voice and grew enough hair on my face to be painful to remove but not enough for a decent beard (thankfully). I came out at age 23 and I was 30 when I received my surgery. The waits seem long to you but the wait will be far shorter than what I had to deal with. I know it's not fun living the life you have but you will receive treatment in far less time than I did.
