Hello,I have an evaluation coming up in December and I'm really excited! I just have a few questions.

Positives and negatives of starting HRT at 15? Anything that could kill me? I have a big fear of death :/

I'm a little overweight,is that a bad thing when starting HRT? I'm around 160-170 and 5'5 and age 14,I'm trying to lose weight at the moment.

Is it likely or unlikely that I could live up to 30-40+ years on hormones? I'm honestly so scared of dying.

Also I'm starting to question myself if this is really what I want. Is this normal? For about 3 years I was so depressed and just wanted to be who I am on the inside but now since I'm getting closer to starting HRT I'm beginning to question myself,like if this is the right thing? What if I regret this in 5 years? Is it normal to question yourself?

Sorry if I asked questions like this before,I'm just really nervous.

And also sorry if I accidentally posted this question twice, I closed off the page just as I was finished writing the post.

Thank you!

Under a doctors supervision, hormones are very safe and you should be able to live a long life. The extra weight you are carrying is an issue so you should try to lose that. Your doctor may be able to advise you on a diet that works for you but one thing that helps me maintain my weight is to eliminate as much sugar and fatty food from my diet as possible. I still eat it but in limited quantities.

Starting female hormones you will find it's harder to lose weight so healthiness eating will be a priority for you if you wish to maintain a healthy weight.

This is a major change in your life and I can understand you being a bit unsure about it but the feeling you have will not leave you without treatment. I had doubts up to the moment of my surgery but not after my surgery. A few doubts are a healthy thing because it means you are still examining the details of your life to make sure your feelings haven't changed. A person who lacks doubts may overlook and important fact and make a mistake.

Thank you so much,I feel much better now!

There's a huge lot of positives starting at 15; its about as good as it gets. I've seen so many people post questions on Internet forums asking it is too late for me at 60, 50, ... 40, 30, 20, 18? No one asks that at 15.

There's a lot of people here, like me, who started much later in life and its a very hard way to go. Like many I've a lot of regret about not starting earlier. Also as you get older you accumulate a lot of ties to your old life and its gets harder and harder to change. I'd imagine your physical results will be pretty well perfect.

I'd think you'll live a lot longer on HRT than you would without. Being trans and fighting it is an horrible way to live, and very unhealthy. I've seen my blood test results change with my stress levels. If I'd kept at it I'd be dead of an avoidable medical condition sometime in the not too distant future. That's not even counting that living like that is not really living.

Its very normal to question yourself, sensible even. At the end of the day there's no way of being sure about anything, but you've have to make decisions anyway. There's no certainty in life, just do the best you can.

I may be wrong, but I think the usual HRT at 15 is puberty blockers, so I don't think you're really making any serious commitment yet. Just delaying the real decision time to a bit later.

The earlier you start (within reason) the better. There are a number of changes that occur or can occur during male puberty which are extremely undesirable and difficult/expensive to reverse. Starting HRT (P Blockers or Full HRT) before these changes occur will make it much easier and cheaper as you likely won't need FFS, VFS/Voice Training, or Breast Augmentation if you start early enough.

This is yet another reason I think HRT (P Blockers followed by Full HRT) should be the standard course for children who identify as Trans*. Plus, most of the effects of Full MtF HRT and all of the effects of P Blockers will reverse if you go off them, so it is truly the best/safest option.

I've been postop and on HRT for well over 30 years now. I'm still healthy and fit enough to be keeping up with the extreme physical and mental challenges of studying medicine with a bunch of 18 to 25 year olds.

The only reason for any concern would be if our modern civilisation collapsed and you were unable to obtain the hormones, a scenario which thankfully isnt all that likely, and which frankly would pose us greater survival problems than the non availability of HRT.

So on the whole no need to worry.

PS - I tried to get HRT at 16 and was refused... back in those days I had to wait until I was in my twenties before anyone would issue the meds, so on the whole I think you are pretty lucky.

losing weight for me after HRT is very difficult. I just want to eat.