How much somatic dysphoria do you experience? Or did you for post-ops?

This is focusing on the gender incongruency of your body.

The very bland 'a little' I'm afraid.

No big horror stories or nothing. I reckon I have said it before, but I want a body that responds to my wishes better, something a bit better balanced and slicker. I'm not too bothered about the 'look' of it. I think it represents my soul well enough. Slouchy and informal, with half a smile and a belly that reveals a lack of self control and eyes that myopically spark around.

Indeed I can't imagine hating my body really, it's only a body.

Nero, you could add, hated aspects of my body (other than genitals) and fixed them.
that's why my FFS was about.

I HATE "my" entire body!

Before hormones, it was my entire body.  As hormones started its magic effect, my hatred moved towards my genitals.  I couldn't stand them.  It was the most repugnant feeling that you can ever imagine, and I am not sure if I could convey into words what I felt.  SRS has made a huge difference in the way I see my body now.  As I said on a different thread, I have learned to love my body (including my new genitals  ) and needless to say, it is a great feeling...

tink

You can have all the somatic fun on this thread folks.
Just not the circular cat-fights, they is dull.

No.

He's obviously androgyne like all the cool people 

Quote from: Pica Pica on December 20, 2007, 05:50:21 PMI think it represents my soul well enough. Slouchy and informal, with half a smile and a belly that reveals a lack of self control and eyes that myopically spark around.

And that's wonderful. Beautiful. Perfect is utterly dull.

I don't necessarily *hate* my body.  I just dislike it extremely.

Val

I did not hate my body only parts of it.

Quote from: Pica Pica on December 20, 2007, 05:50:21 PMIndeed I can't imagine hating my body really, it's only a body.

That reminds me of this quote by C.S. Lewis:

QuoteYou don't have a Soul. You are a Soul. You have a Body.

On topic: My experience similar to Tink's.  All better now 

I don't know, I'm pretty happy with my body.  I want SRS and maybe some FFS (Adam's Apple is a problem), but other than that, not much.  Maybe I just won the genetic race.  Though my feet and shoulders are bigger than I would like.  And my legs are excessively hairy.

What bothers me:

my tits

the menses

I have illness problems affecting my female parts (as if I weren't dysphoric enough already)

the possibilty of pregnancy (the fact that I could bear a child against my will scares the ->-bleeped-<- out of me)

having to shower in my underwear to avoid puking


What I'm cool with:

my {meow}

my height and build (short but well-made)

One that was a result of T. But, I will prolly do nothing about it unless I get a full scholarship for Dr. S. *smile* There was one other aspect that I can do something about without surgery or much else than dieting and exercise. It comes and goes. Tummy.

Of course, as with a lot of women, nothing ever seems just good enough. LOL.

There is no intense hate.

It does have a share of bugs like Y-chromosome, unnecessary bits of SRS-source-material hanging around, and of course the face and overall shape could be better.

Then again if I choose to have FFS it will be mostly for vanity reasons, as I pass well enough not to cause hassle in day-to-day life.

Quote from: Nero on December 21, 2007, 12:00:49 AM
What bothers me:

my tits

the menses

yep used to be bothered by those to.  all is good now

Quote from: Nero on December 21, 2007, 12:00:49 AM
the possibilty of pregnancy (the fact that I could bear a child against my will scares the ->-bleeped-<- out of me)

same here but thatt wasnt happenin.  nope.  for u to get pregnant, u gotta be with a bio dude.  it doesnt happen out of the blue

Quote from: Nero on December 21, 2007, 12:00:49 AM

What I'm cool with:

my {meow}

lmao    me to.  it aint a meow though.  the guy's name's king kong

Quote from: Nero on December 21, 2007, 12:00:49 AM

my height and build (short but well-made)

yep me too.  cool!

Well me for many years I was neutral on the topic of gender and even less about some certain undesirable appendages bellow. I had not been big on sex to start with and after a life of Hell with my ex kind of soured me of any latent interest in sexual activity that I may have retained. During those days I was not yet aware of the existence of transsexuals.

I pretty well lived alone androgynously. One day I came upon a couple of folks at a coffee shop discussing the subject  of transexuality, and memories from my earlier years came flooding back as I found myself identifying with what was being discussed in that conversation. I didn't waste anytime going to the local library to get some books on the subject. It wasn't long after this discovery I didn't waste time starting what ever procedures I had to do to begin transitioning.

I think the worst part of my journey was when the realisation of the surgery had come home to roost. I was so scared I would make up with the sweats. I hadn't felt fear like that since when I was living with my ex.  But I decided I had to move forward, I just couldn't just sit there like a petrified chicken. I finally got over the fear when I thought, (I mentioned this a couple times already on this board) What's the worst that can happen? Croak during the surgery? Well I won't be around to find out now will I? I survived but not without a lot of pain for a while.

You wanna know how I feel now? At peace. And having the ability to have emotions are about the best two gifts I could get as a reward for the crappy life I had before.

Cindy 

I've read this sort of thing before....a have a friend who wants to look female physically female and she wants her body shape to look female, just like the rest of us Male to females...

The U.K NHS psychiatrists then told her she was 'body dismorphic' because she wanted a female shape, which was very foolish of them......and they were unable to understand the concept of what a gender transition involved......they wanted her to have psychiatric intervention in other words emplying she was nuts because she wanted to look female.....how incompetent is that..

I also want a female body and that isn't what I've got and it's very dispressing when you have been on hormones as long as I have. But I'm not about to give up yet...

Quote from: Nero on December 20, 2007, 05:45:42 PM
How much somatic dysphoria do you experience?

Both very much and very little. On the one hand, I am thoroughly convinced that my body feels wrong, and this feeling has existed since before puberty. It's not just one or two clearly defined features, either, unless you want to consider the Y chromosome that way.

On the other hand, there is very little actual dysphoria. I think this is partly because it's not just about some easily fixable details: there's no way I can have all of it corrected, so half-way measures don't attract me that much. I suspect my relative lack of social dysphoria helps, too.

  Nfr

None of the above, more like vague dislike spawned from jealousy of my sister, these days I don't really give a toss.