I'm an 18 year old male in college and I think I may be transsexual. When I was a little kid I remember sneaking into my mom's room and trying on her clothes and shoes. I also would spend hours trying on my father's girlfriends daughters clothes and this happened on multiple occasions. Even when it came to my friends as a child I would play with other girls in my neighborhood and we would play pretend and it would fell invigorating. When I reached middle school I started to watch mtf videos and became amazed at the changes that trans women have gone through. I then started to dream about what it would be like t be a girl and still continue to this very day. I am not super confident around other girls nowadays but I am extremely confident when I talk to other males. When i am around my nieces and nephews i tend to be with my nieces more because it almost gives me a feeling of beings a girl. I don't know if this is because I don't want to act feminine around other girls and be looked at weird or if I am just naturally attracted to males like women are. Also I often find myself looking at other girls and think to myself, I wish I could look like them. I find the urge to want to dress like a girl when this happens like wearing dresses, skirts, nike shirts or even leggings, because women's clothing it much more appealing to me and turns me on and makes me think of what I would look like if I were a girl. I also want to constantly be able to paint my nails and apply makeup as it just makes women look absolutely stunning and I want the same for myself. As well as when I see all the girls on my campus I get jealous of them that they get to look the way they do and dress in such beautiful clothes. Especially girls in sororities because I want to join one and become a "sister", because I envision living like one of them if I was a female right now. I also have started to look at girls less in the way of would I want to date them or if they're attractive and instead look at them in envy as they get to live they're lives the way I think I should be living.
I don't know what to do, if anyone could help me by giving me advice and what they think of my situation that would be seriously helpful.

P.S.
My username is what I want my female name to be if I transition.
-Arianna Nicole

Hi Arianna,

You are fortunate to recognize this in yourself at such a young age. You know you have the feelings. Perhaps you should seek some help from a therapist. A therapist can help you explore options. Often, when we are starting down this path we seem to fetishize all things female. It is easy to become obsessed with the trappings and not the underlying cause. It is important you get to that cause before you enter into any lifetime commitments.

No matter what, you have strong allies here. We can help you understand yourself. So post some questions. Be specific.

Chin up,
Cindi

Dear Arianna;

Welcome to Susan's Place!

I can identify with much of what you wrote.

I am not capable of giving you an official diagnosis nor would that be responsible of me to do so but what I would suggest is that you see a gender therapist who has far more knowledge than I.

If you do decide that you wish to transition, then feel free to ask questions as there are many on here who know exactly what you are feeling and have been in your shoes so to speak.

If you are going to transition though, may I offer some advice? Don't do anything that cannot be reversed until you are absolutely certain you wish to go down that road. It isn't easy transitioning and there are many risks involved. In the mean time, look around and there is a lot of information to be found on here that may be of use to you.

All the best.

Love,
Clare

Hi Arianna 

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V M

Hello and welcome 

Here at the links are some resources that could help you:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,194986.msg1737439.html#msg1737439

You might ask for counseling, with plannedparenthood or a lgbt center...
or you might look for a good gender therapist...

I'd say take the time you need but keep at it...
and there are many people going through this, you are not the only one...

and here is a link to other young trans people:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,195129.msg1758946.html#msg1758946


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Thanks all of you for making me feel welcome.
I look forward to being here and I am definitely going to check out all of the resources that you have provided me with.

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-Arianna

Hi and welcome

Quote from: ariannanicole on December 01, 2015, 10:08:28 PM
Thanks all of you for making me feel welcome.
I look forward to being here and I am definitely going to check out all of the resources that you have provided me with.

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-Arianna

Have fun looking around...

and ask questions if you have any 


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