It's a strange one for me, really, but it's sort of hard to explain.
Like, over time, behaviours and expressions and emotions have been generally categorised as masculine and feminine. Unfortunately part of this split comes from the patriarchy wishing to re-assert its position of dominance over women with each generation. Much as I don't like masculine categorised things, some of them are quite useful!!
The bad thing comes from the fact that men have a tendency to keep the good stuff and apply an inferior status to anything seen as feminine; for example a nail technician is as valid as a science technician but tends to be given a lower status.
And, as has happened in my life, biological sex doesn't necessarily matter when it comes to how these gendered behaviours are acted out and seen.
Feminine men are generally treated like dirt. But different dirt to the girls? If I'm a ball of fluff then they're mud on the carpet!!!! However, feminine as may be, they still have elements of male privilege - still masters of their own destinies. Should they decide to give it all up and buy lumberjack shirts they'd be welcomed back into the bro's club, maybe?!?
But whatever, I see gender as a complete social construct, most of which favours the masculine. Which is different to sex, the physical aspects. I want to change those because some aren't right - which is why, I suppose, I'd be a transsexual. I'm not that interested in gender and would be much happier if we forgot about it entirely and did what we wanted - boys and girls free to be builders or hairdressers or whatever they wanted to be. Equal status for sex and gendered activities
As for me - it just won't feel right until I look right, which isn't much to do with behaviour really xx
