Excitement about the new has vanished. I am just feeling alive now that I am living my life full time.
So, what are the moments I feel most alive. Talking. It is about finally having the 'right' to use the right intonations, but in big part about facial expressions. Eyebrows, cheeks, smiles, tilting etc. It all comes out finally and that is how a bite of freedom tastes.
Before, I didn't wish to even look people in the eye while talking with them. Head down. Now I have my sight up again. It is a big change. While my misanthropy generally didn't change, my loving self definitely increased.
So I will call it social/business interaction.