Joanne, I know what you mean. My job also is one of the only thing I'm good at and gives me relief from the GD. It seems like one of the only times I forget or don't think about it.

If if want for the low dose E and antidepressants I would not function. I'm transgender. People deal with things in efferent ways. Distractions are good but I found things catchup to you over time

Hugs
Melanie


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Quote from: JoanneB on December 23, 2015, 08:11:51 PM
TBH, I have no "plans to transition". Dreams, sure. Plans? Survival or not? Easy one for me... today. Seven years ago, well can't say for sure.

Some days I feel like such a phony. That "I'm not really trans" or worse, "I'm not that trans". I've been getting hit with it a lot because of a new member in my group. An older person... mid 30's early 40 ish I think. The GD and anxiety so bad it's hard to function. No way has my GD ever felt that bad. One way or another I can persevere. Not do my job? Heck, it's the only thing I am good at. So maybe, just maybe, I am not really trans. Maybe.. I am just a CD  ?

The fish slap of reality tends to come along knocking me into the lock.

Hi Joanne,

One thing I did learn from my group is that everyone is unique.   There were quite a few gender-fluid individuals identifying as "them".   It opened my eyes to the fact that too many people are worried about classifications.  I'm who I am, if I don't fit in someone's neat little idea of what "Trans" is, well that's their problem.

The only thing I know for sure is that I have terrible body dysphoria.  I have had it all my life and I'm walking a tightrope trying to deal with it and not disrupt my life too much.

Take care,
Paige

Don't feel bad about being a odd duck,i'm a really odd duck,don't do the bar scene,not wanting too be full time,don't care for hrt,even though I might have a hormone imbalance. I can go on and on but after yrs of dealing with my gd I found a balance that somewhat works,i also have a supportive wife that is fine with my dressing as long as I don't go overboard. But there are times i'm weary of being transgender.

Quote from: cheryl reeves on December 28, 2015, 12:37:12 PM
Don't feel bad about being a odd duck,i'm a really odd duck,don't do the bar scene,not wanting too be full time,don't care for hrt,even though I might have a hormone imbalance. I can go on and on but after yrs of dealing with my gd I found a balance that somewhat works,i also have a supportive wife that is fine with my dressing as long as I don't go overboard. But there are times i'm weary of being transgender.

Thanks Cheryl.  It always helps to be reminded that there are many different paths, not just one.

Take care,
Paige