this year has been nothing but terror. I mean I can't find a shred of good in this year. I have not been so hurt and enraged. I'm just going to do a lot of avoiding this year. be completely closed off. I can't take another year like a had this past year.

So sorry to hear that you have had a rough year Riley. I can only hope that you have a better year next year. Hang in there. Hugs
Mariah

So your going to make a bad yr worse in 2016? Live life not hide from it

easier said than done. when your me, running is the only way to save your life. I do in fact embrace everything, however once I sense inevitable doom, usually the first moment, I get away and I get away fast. all this year I got words and actions that hold no weight. my mistrust for humans in generally has only deepened. all I asked for was reassurance but like everything else, that's impossible. so because of that, avoidance is my only option. will something good happen? maybe. will I know? sure because I'm not so closed off to let things slip by me. i'm not taken empty promises and broken actions anymore. I get one lie, and whatever or who lied to me I will completely stop acknowledging their very existence. I'm tired and fed up. 23 years of it is enough to make one sick and I've reached that point

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2015 has been a year for me as you describe.  I THOUGHT I would be starting E in January.  Um, no - my doctor dropped out of practice and left no one to pick up the slack.  I found a different agency and after six months therapy I was told I was no candidate for transition.  That one still stings.  It seems I used one WRONG word: non-binary.

2016 will be a new year for me and hopefully things will come together.  The really female part of me is hiding in her private space, wanting nothing but to be left alone.  I will take things as they come and hopefully something for me to progress opens up.  You sound as if you will be open to steps forward when they are available.  Sometimes this takes a LOT of time.

Hang in there!


Erin