So,
I get invited to a New Year Party... I did not expect at all.. The person having the party is the boyfriend for 15 years of one of my girlfriends from High School. Its weird but I have a lot of friends now mostly from High School and they are mostly women who reached out to me and we have become good friends..
First, every one of us has a different personality, it makes it so interesting to talk and enjoy each others company.
Its different than when I was a guy, it just feels so natural.. almost like we all kind of are in a club.. the girls against the guys.. not in a bad way its just that as a woman, especially middle aged, the friends I have are good role models for me in some ways.. teaching me what to and not do... mostly with regards with men.. LOL.
There are so many sweet men in the world but then there seems to always be that one dude in the crowd who it a little forward.. and alcohol is to blame for a lot of that. ( More about that at the end)
So, I get there and who is there to great me at the door..?? The guy who from what I knew totally rejected who I was.. he was in total yuckville about it.. I was told by a lot of the girls to ignore him or anything he says and that we love you Keri.
So there he is... I am so nervous and he is like... Keri get in here!!!! and shows me around.. He was so fun the whole nite and showed me his motorcycles which by the way were really cool.. It was amazing and surprising.
So as the night went on.. we would just group together in different groups then move on to another.. trying to see everyone.. and get to know the ones I had not met.
I got a lot of attention from men there for conversation.. mostly just friendly stuff about life and what they did .. you know.. its always interesting to know others and learn about them.. everyone is an amazing book we get to read..
Anyway, there was one guy who is married.. he did not flirt with me but he did give me a hard time as he does all women about this or that.. he was so cute.. just love him so much.
Then there are guys there I already know.. I knew I was safe.. I had my allies if anything happened.
So toward the end about 2am I am getting tired and decide I need to go and the person I thought did not like me, the one who had the party did not want me to go.. he was sweet.
But here is the one thing that happened at the very end that kind of upset me.. and its not different than for any other woman.
There is the one guy right.. a little too much to drink.. he knows I am trans and he kind of got into my space lets say and was like so your really going to do that surgery.. as if it was the worst thing ever for someone to do... I was nice and said well of course silly.. then he asked me if was going to date after that in a way that made me feel he thought I would kind of be a slut.. he did not say that but it was weird.. I dont think he respects women at all.. period.. so it was my first experience with invaded space.. a touch I did not want..
I had such a good time and I knew alcohol was affecting him or I could have punched him or said something rude.. I chose to ignore it .. smile and realize.. to keep my distance in the future. He is kind of a nice guy..from what I have seen in the past.
So, then it kept bugging me.. the only thing negative about the night.. I finally laughed it off but here is the lesson.
Me can be jerks.. seriously, and its no wonder so many women are married and divorced more than once.. As a female I long for companionship, but I need to be picky and not just think because I am trans I can't get a nice guy.
So, I learned I am in a special club with a bunch of girls now.. and then there are the men.. LOL.. and they seem so different.. I fit in with the girls.. not the men.. its cool.. I like it.. its the way it should always have been.
Even so, being a woman is not easy, but its who I am and that will never change.. for better or for worse..
BTW the food was so good.. OMG..
Happy New Year
Keri
PS and the guy I thought would beat me up if he ever saw me turned out to be a sweet teddy bear.. a real good guy with a good heart..
