Dear Hollie;
Such a pretty name.
Welcome to Susan's Place. On here you'll find many who are just like you and many of the things you wrote were just how I felt. I'm an older woman who began her transition a few years ago and as much as people begged me, I just couldn't go back to being the way I lived.
It's hard for people to accept us but things are getting better although they are slow, but one day we shall be no longer afraid to declare our true selves to the world.
I found it easier to tell people as time went on. If they accepted me, great! If not, then it's their loss as I am a good person.
You take care of yourself and someone will be along shortly to provide you with some information that will help you along the way on here.
All the best.
Love,
Clare