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Kate:
Only seeing your site picture, I was curious why you felt the urgency or need for FFS. I thought, as perhaps others, to question you to be certain you will do this for your own well-being and not at the behest of others.
As I progressed reading through your thread, it became clear when you explain how and why you are doing this for you. I can also comprehend when you wrote about your personal safety travelling home.
People familiar to us frequently still see that old us as much as we do and that remains our sliver of doubt. No matter how many times I can look in my mirror, see my female self, and jump for joy, some days I catch one bit of minutiae that draws my attention and drops my mood. So I can empathise with you.
I eventually saw you later pictures - front, side, 3/4 - and, while I see female, it could be that we tend to go easy on ourselves when others see harshly. Yes, though I can see masculine features, I still first say female before saying male. FFS will make you a better you and that is among the points in your favour.
I rarely use face make-up; maybe occasionally a little eye-liner to make my eyes show and a little lip-stick for color. I can get out of bed, take my shower, put on anything, and no one thinks of me male, or at least no one approaches as that, and there is quite that self-satisfying comfort about that. You deserve having that same relaxed experience for your own self-satisfying comfort same as any other female.
Others here at Susan's write of successfully enduring their FFS. When you are ready, then you will do it for your self. You have done your homework well enough to know what you want and where you want to go. Those are all positive steps in your own self-determination.
You have all my best wishes for your best results possible. I am among your followers who eagerly await you to show off your results when the time comes to post them.
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