I've already told my dad that I don't like being a girl and that I want to be a boy, and he asked all the usual questions:

Are you gay?
Do you want to transition?
When did you know for yourself?
Etc.

He only asked because I asked him to tell mom for me. I'm not sure if he knows what a transsexual is, because I never actually used the word. At that point, I was just coming to realize everything that was going on enough to be able to answer some of his questions. I'm still not sure if I'm gay, because I've never been in love, but I'm pretty sure I am, so that's what I told him. I also didn't know if I wanted to transition or not (In my condition, thoughts came on slowly and intensified over time.). Now I am sure I want to transition.

I feel as though, right now, I am at the peak of my thoughts towards this. One more step, and I'll fall off the edge and become suicidal. I don't want to be that way. Right now, I still have a long wait to go before I can be the true me.

So, I wanted your opinions on whether or not I should send an email to my dad about it before I leave to my mom's tomorrow night (my parents are divorced). That way, he'd get the email after I'm gone and will have a week to contemplate it before I see him again (I'm going to my mom's for the last half of winter break.) Basically, in the email, I will describe transsexualism in the best way I can, and tell him a bit about how I feel. I'll also give him some ideas as to how he can help me. Maybe this will start me on a better trail. What do you think?

I would think - and its just me - that talking to people face to face is always better somehow.

I suck at talking face to face so I'd explain everything by email, but that's me. Don't let this hurdle in your journey knock you down. Its just another step to becoming who you are. I thought I could never explain or come out to half the people I have. It came over time as I accepted myself. There's a few letters to parents available on the internet, I think even here in susan's front page. Sending them one of those to look at might be helpful.

Hello,

I don't always do to well when talking to people face-to-face, I'm much better with words then anything in life so I wrote my father a letter. You can find a copy of my coming-out letter to my father on my blog space here on Susan's Place.

Only you can really decide what is right for you, but coming-out to one's parents is one of the most stressful things you can do. In the long run it's something you have to do in order to move on with your life. While the most stressful thing you can do, it's also the most liberating and freeing thing you can do too.

I wish you the best of luck either way you decide to go...

Peace and love,
Isabelle St-Pierre

This is going to be most un-PC around here, but, of course the MtFs can write an email- that's what makes them girls.  But ya want to be a real guy?  Do it face to face, man to man.  Because, if you can't, you might be mistaken.

This is the acid test.  Either you can face your father, or.... a little girl you will forever be.

I hate to state it in such blank terms.  But I know its true.  Men become men (and check out the Star Wars trilogy for mythic/proof of this) by confronting their fathers.  Only then will you be a Jedi.