Quote from: RobynD on February 01, 2016, 12:11:33 PM
Did the therapist provide any helpful advice or feedback on that?
Well my therapist told me my wife is bashing me because she is angry because she does not want me to transition and it is something that is out of her control. So she is starting to play dirty to try and regain control. She is playing my parents up against me also now. She is thinking that my dad will intimidate me enough so that I won't transition.
The funny part is my dad just wants me to open up my mind. Because I was going so much back and forward between transition and not.
It is the third time I am typing this post.
Well basically this morning I was upset by what she said but it is manipulation she is trying ti manipulate me into staying a man. She thought she was safe when she decided to divorce that I am going to stay a man. Really you thought that well you only gave Amoray more reason more life left only 3 doors open and I am taking door no 1.
The other thing that my therapist said I must stop forgiving her behaviour and see it as unacceptable because I am forgiving everything. The way she is treating me is unacceptable. How she is still trying to dictate my life.
Well physical abuse.
Emotional abuse
Trying to make myself feel bad because I am trans.
My endo told me if I stopped with hrt this time he will not give me another subscription. Well she thought I am screwed and I could not get another one. She thought she had it all figured out from using my family to try and make me feel bad to my child to my dad to intimidate me.
What did I do from somewhere in me some sort of strange female power essence came up I do not know what it is where it came from but it is some sort of thing I never felt before and I turned B.
I told her she had the chance to keep me a man if it is so important to her that I stay a man. She failed to do it I am not at fault here she had the opportunity for six months. I even told her last sunday I will stay a man for you it is your choice and she showed me away.
Not she gave me the chance to stay a man for them I gave her the chance and she screwed it up.
Then she want to come and tell me she is going to find someone that want to be a father for my child that want to spend time with her and be a role model for her.
Well I told her to go find him because I know step parents and all their crap. Plus a role model who do you think is the role model the step dad that sits and watch rugby and drink beer or wait for it.... The parent that is trans that hit rock bottom and picked herself up that won against dysphoria. The parent that is a real parent and showed the world that we trans people are people and we can love and be loved. We trans people can function in normal life and that we can have families,friends and children. Also we can have careers. All this with all odds stacked against us. Who is the real role model?
Plus she thought she will get rid of Amoray by divorcing me well guess again. We share a child! Amoray is here and she is here too stay she will look into my pretty eyes and see who I really am. I will be at sport events at school events and much more and I will not lie about where my child is coming from pretend that I am the friend and she is some strangers child nooooo. I will make sure they know that me and my ex is her parents. I am not scared I faced enough to be a strong girl. My child will see me standing tall and strong as a woman and follow my example. So she thought she had it all sorted and under control and I would just go on be a man to suit her well guess again.
She had the opportunity it was given to her on a golden platter.
How many trans people are willing to give up their own self and who they are for someone they love? She had it in front of her she could have taken it if it meant so much for her that I stay a man.
