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Started by abd789, February 05, 2016, 05:06:56 AM

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abd789

with nice weather coming fast Im getting a little worried about how I will present myself

as a male I always wore baggy shirts and jeans and wore light jackets as long as I could, but when the weather got too warm I kept the baggy shirts and prolly looked like crap

so now that Im losing weight, my butt and my boobs are really getting prominent and the girl body is showing. I guess I have to "come out" fully before the weather breaks so I can show myself off...  :-\
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IdontEven

I'm in the same boat, and it's getting really warm here really fast. Cooler today, but it was like 70 on Wed. and I was burning up in my baggy longsleeve shirt.

I was thinking I'd try to find some more andro clothes (especially shirts) and that might make it somehow...less awkward or something when people notice the boobs? The problem is figuring out what a more androgynous shirt would be. The only thing I can come up with are those shirts some male rockers wore in the 60s/70s, a peasant shirt? Can't seem to find any that aren't way too feminine though.

I could just come out socially and transition, but I'm honestly not ready for that. Too much change in my life otherwise that I'm still adapting to. I thought I'd have more time on low-dose. Oh well, guess it had to happen sooner or later. Was hoping for a more feminized face and a somewhat calmer life before the boobs showed up though.

Good luck to you!
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
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Emileeeee

I have the same issue. Winter's my season because I can ease into transition without suddenly walking around with a highly visible chest. I'm also not too thrilled with my tattoo selection while I was in denial. They cover too much surface area to be hidden (and that was the point at the time).
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abd789

IDontEven..... love that name

both of you, funny we are all in this together... I think for me its time for me to just come out... the ice is cracking fast and maybe its just about time. I would love to spend this summer as the real me

I went out again today full on (except guy socks...my feet are shrinking and my girl socks are too thin, lol) anyway, I had ZERO weirdness... I did get sir'd by some goodwill employee who acted like rainman and walked around head down and mumbling...didnt even look at me... I think maybe because I was bigger than him or something.... who knows. Everyone else treated me perfect so thats a step in the right direction for me

and my boobs seemed to grow overnight so Im screwed I think unless I proceed ;D
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Eva Marie

Rita-

There comes a time...... when hiding the authentic you is impossible. I held on way too too long and was starting to get male fails and my shirts weren't hiding the obvious any longer - I realized it was time to move forward . My therapist and I made a plan and 4 months later it was a done deal.

Looking at your picture I see a girl - you aren't going to be able to conceal it for much longer I think.
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abd789

Thank you so much Eva

I know its coming and Im trying to get things in place... I need to relax a bit and know that things will fall the way they are supposed to. Its just falling faster than I thought!  :o
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RobynD

I totally get this! This spring my body has changed so much. Eeek T-shirts, What length shorts? My fairly androgynous wardrobe of this time last year will not cut it. I'm sorta freaking out about it already.




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Emjay

Quote from: Eva Marie on February 05, 2016, 06:15:42 PM
There comes a time...... when hiding the authentic you is impossible.

This is so true and comes in so many different forms too.  For whatever reason I seemed to be able to switch back and forth pretty easily even though I thought my physical changes were a dead giveaway and there was no way people wouldn't notice.  Maybe they did and were just being polite, I'll never know for sure. 

On the inside though I had begun to go down the rabbit hole of depression again dealing with it.  Starting therapy pushed it away for a time.  Then beginning electrolysis, followed by starting HRT.....  Everything pushed back my feelings but this last time I knew it was happening again and I knew it was time to just come out.

For me, my last big push came from inside.

I hope that makes sense.... 




Start therapy:                            Late 2013
Start HRT:                                 April, 2014
Out everywhere and full time:      November 19, 2015
Name change (official):                            February 1, 2016
I'm a Mommy! (Again) :                             January 31, 2017
GCS consultation:                        February 17, 2017
GCS, Dr. Gallagher (Indianapolis, IN)  February 13, 2018
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IdontEven

I agree with Eva, total girl in that picture.

Also, it seems, at least as far as I can tell from the "still presenting male" side of the fence, that just having confidence (or faking it well enough) will let you get away with pretty much anything. Still working on that part, personally  :-\
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
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abd789

Quote from: IdontEven on February 05, 2016, 10:16:17 PM
I agree with Eva, total girl in that picture.

Also, it seems, at least as far as I can tell from the "still presenting male" side of the fence, that just having confidence (or faking it well enough) will let you get away with pretty much anything. Still working on that part, personally  :-\

Thats awfully nice of you to say... and normally I would dispute that fact by saying all sorts of things about my pic...but Im not going to do that today. Im gonna bask in this for a moment. Thanks ;D

Im learning alot lately and my confidence is growing everyday... sometimes it falls. My advice from recent exp is just keep going... today I told myself Im just going in the womens room...just go and I did and it felt great. I also took my jacket off in the thrift store... I was hot and off it came.... I do hide in it, its a girls black jacket... but off it came and there I was boobs and all in a nice girl shirt. No one even cared. I never thought I would be at this point, just a few months ago it seemed so far away and unattainable. But if I can do it anyone can.... just keep going and challenge yourself. 
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