My only real trigger is work.  It's a big place and I've been there 19 years.  I am pretty well known and fairly well respected for what I do.  And complicating it is that I deal with people, across the country nearly daily by telephone or video conference with occasional trips for face to face meetings.  So any public coming out cannot really be a low key thing.   

I don't really have any viable options for leaving and starting fresh somewhere that I'm not known without taking a hugely massive pay cut.

Plus all my major background qualifications are in a male only occupation.


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Since I have to wear a skirt almost every day, i often feel self conscious and wish i could just be a girl and not ftm. It'd make things much easier and I always feel like I'm making a fuss and a fool of myself, although I'm not even out yet.

How about triggers that cause you to WANT to transition?

Not wanting to is easy for me. I've spent decades dedicating my life to being 'Normal(ish)'. I stuffed, I ignored. I used diversions and distractions to avoid looking at the 800 lb gorilla in the room called me. Not wanting to is easy. After all, who wants to be TG?  Not anyone I've ever came across 

Quote from: JoanneB on February 09, 2016, 11:09:38 PM
How about triggers that cause you to WANT to transition?

That is an easy one.
1. Not wanting to go the rest of my life wondering if I could have done it
2. Feeling like not doing it was going to result in an early demise.

Thank you for responding, everyone!

Quote from: JoanneB on February 09, 2016, 11:09:38 PM
How about triggers that cause you to WANT to transition?

The most salient trigger that causes me to want to transition, is when I'm in a relationship and everything is going well. In those situations, I feel dishonest and trapped, because I can't envision a compelling future with myself presenting as male. If I didn't feel this way in relationships, I could probably live a content life, without transitioning.

My biggest trigger right now is that I'm managing my dysphoria while presenting as mostly masculine.  That makes me think that maybe it's all just been a bad dream, and that it would be way easier to not transition (too late, boobs!).  I still present as somewhat feminine even on days when I don't feel it, so the only (pro-femme) dysphoria I get is when I'm dressed femme enough that I expect to read myself as female.  That can serve as a reminder to bring me back to reality, but usually the thing that does it is a positive experience that affirms my femininity.

Before I transitioned I guess my height and lack of hair up top were the main reasons I used not to transition, don't know if they were triggers though. In a way, those "deterrents" just made me want to try harder once I decided I was going to transition.

I think for me its kinda the same. I feel like that mainly when people (I guess cis people) try to make me feel guilty or sinful for wanting to become my true self in spite of the separation and distance that its creating between me and my family, even more so than ever before.

Quote from: JoanneB on February 09, 2016, 11:09:38 PM
How about triggers that cause you to WANT to transition?

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