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It seems you are a not quite where a dose would make you feel more comfortable.
Usually people start out on a lower dose, also with anti androgen.
And unfortunately some docs are rather conservative concerning hormone levels.
Many endos as a rule of thumb strive for levels of 200 pg/ml or above.
Those levels might make you feel better.
Pregnant Cis people have levels of a few thousand without harm.
Most feared side effects according to studies come from swallowing pils, often non bioidentical, which can be avoided with bioidentical pills and sublingual use.
Sublingual use bypasses the liver with intake and enters the bloodstream faster. So spreading the daily dose in a few smaller doses throughout the day might make for more stable levels, which can also affect mood.
Just take that to your doc and talk with them about it. Often docs are not that experienced with transgender issues.
Many docs also look for levels of T below 60 ng/dl . If they drop to almost zero it might take away the will to being active, and it might affect orgasmic abilities. So a fine tuning here is also possible.
A third option could be bioidentical progesterone. It can help with breast growth, with form and rounding, and have some effect on mood.
Orgasms tend to be more feminine, taking longer and possibly spread throughout the body.
Quite a few people use toys like the lelo smart wand large, or magic wands.
And its possible interest shifts from being visual to liking stories. I'd say stick to nice and romantic ones
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Its possible estrogen increases emotions, moodiness and intuition. Its part of the package. So you might know, try to brighten mood, live healthy like eating healthy and having regular exercises...
its possible now after three months doses were supposed to be raised anyways, as said many start out slow, and a raised dose could make you feel better, not in a state still in between.
Just talk it all through with your doc, or look for someone with experience in transgender issues.
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