Ok so I had my first gender therapy appointment today. It took so much internal struggling to finally do it. I was anxious and nervous and I've been up for a VERY long time. Long story short, the therapist never showed up. Like I was there early and waited until well after my appointment time and she just never showed. My brain keeps telling "maybe something major came up" but my heart keeps telling me "well she probably dint want anything to do with you, wierdo" and I just... well I mean they are supposed to be the one place it is safe to run to when every one who loved you turns away right? Right? And I fell like I made someone else run away with nothing but a phone conversation ......[emoji27]  [emoji45]

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♤Kirsten Danielle xoxo

I'm sorry to hear that has happened - I know the first appointment can be very difficult. I wouldn't take it personally, the therapist doesn't know you so I very much doubt it was a deliberate slight. Have you tried to contact them? There could be any number of reasons. If they do prove unresponsive and elusive it it because they are a bad therapist and shouldn't even be practicing and you should try to find one that is more professional. But try contacting them first - it may have been a simple mix up.

I did call her and she thought that my appointment wasn't until next month. I set up another appointment and so now I wait *sigh* thank you!

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♡Kirsten Danielle xoxo

Kirsten Danielle,

I am so sorry to hear that. I was in a terrible state for my first appointment. It is hard to get there. Then it is hard to wait further. Hang in there. It is life throwing a curve.

With warmth,

Joanna

Thank you so much Joanna, it feels comforting just knowing I'm not alone.

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♡Kirsten Danielle xoxo

Nope, you're not alone. We may be few statistically speaking, but there are a lot of us. While there are many journeys, most lead the same way. This means some of us are bound to have similar experiences.

That's the interesting thing about this site and it's long term members. Almost every day there are more desperate people going through what many already have. I am not belittling your experience. It is not a competition or so common place, members yawn. More saying we can feel for you.

Breathing and distractions seem to be some of the best coping mechanisms.

I hope the time goes quickly for you.

Wishing you love, acceptance and a smoother journey,

Joanna

Thank you!! I just posted this on another thread but I wanted to share it here too. I came out to my mother, not 20 minutes ago and she told me that she has always known and that she was waiting for me to take the first step. She said that she will still love me no matter what. I cryed tears of joy because I know that not everyone gets accepted by their parents at least not at first but I don't know what I would have done. I'm not a very strong person but omg it helps so much to be a little more honest with my self and loved ones. I need my mom in my life and...*tears up again* gawd I'm just so glad

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♡Kirsten Danielle xoxo

That's fantastic! Congratulations. You are lucky to have that support for when the going gets tough. There's nothing like a mother's love. You are ahead of me on that one. I have yet to come out to many.... Have a great day.
Joanna

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