My rant of today. I do not have any friends, so...i just need to let out this feeling.

I started to take Finestaride one and a half moths ago. Then i lost my period, it means i have 2 periods lost. I have this psychological thing of forgetting  of being intersex, and began to see myself as a transgender woman...then each moth, my period remembers that it is not that way.

I am tired of my period. I hate it. Every month there is this psychological revolution happening inside my head.  PMS sucks. Sucks really bad. I had have problems because of it all my life. I hate it. I thought that menopause was the beginning of feeling more "normal", but not yet.

I had a psychological breakdown 2 days ago. I felt like when i was at young age, at adolescence. I started to work on it, then this. Uffff. Is just hormonal!!!. When am i going to understand that i am an intersex woman. It is not easy.

I feel confused. I think that finestaride was messing with my periods. I guess i will leave finestaride a little and let my periods at like what they are, and then, after menopause, begin with it. I don't know.

I feel better know.

Thank you susans.org for this space.

Ok, seems that Finestaride works at brain level. In one month it got me a mental fog and i could not remember things. So I try it with taking half of it and after 2 days, i was on fog and forgetting. I leave Finestaride 2 days ago and again, my period came.

So, yes finestaride  mess with the brain AND menstruation cycle.

I really love finestaride on my "hair side" and because it blocks the "testosterone DTH or something" it worked great with my body. But well, i prefer to be mentally healthy.