I wanted to share a bit about my last therapy session. Quick background: I've been seeing a gender therapist weekly for about 2 months now. My gender dysphoria/euphoria started about 6 or so months ago after the first time I allowed myself to express my femme side. There are things in my past that obviously could be clues but I stay away from retrospective narrative building.
It took some serious soul searching and introspection before I fully accepted my true gender. That said my confidence about that still goes up and down. I've tried not to look to my therapist for validation, I know that really isn't how it works. However, I still wanted an external opinion.
So I started talking about all this with her, and the subject of a referral letter came up. The local informed consent clinic is top notch, so I've never really asked about a referral for HRT. I was just curious how often she writes them, and what criteria she uses to make a decision whether to or not.
She knew where the conversation was going, and gave me a pretty solid validation from her experience and our hours together.
It definitely helped my confidence to hear it, but I feel kinda let down that I needed it. I have my first appointment at the IC clinic on Wed, so maybe that's just starting to give me jitters.
I'm excited about starting HRT, just getting anxious and nervous is all.
Anyone go through these emotions as they came out and began to transition?