I've been going out dressed as a woman in public almost every day for the last month now, and everything had been going so well, until the other day, when a sales clerk called me "sir". Now I just feel devastated I know its minor and will happen many times in my life now but I cant stop thinking about it.
I needed to go to the pharmacy for my medicine, I thought I was dressed in casual female cloths, with my good wig, even if I wasnt wearing makeup, but my cloths and breast(padded) were covered up under a very heavy 3 sizes too big for me male winter coat. When I asked for my medicine I forgot to first say Bobbie, I just lowered my voice to tell her my male name under which my prescription is.
When we finished the transaction she probably had no other clues to my gender but either my birth name or my long hair and said "Thank you, Sir" but I was shocked at first.
I know I made a lot of mistakes with this, and probably shouldn't have expected anything different if Id really thought about my presentation.
But I've lost a lot of my confidence, I'm not seeing the girl in the mirror anymore, and in general not feeling like my feminine self now.
How do you get past these setbacks? Last week I was thinking about when I'd be ready for my RLT, now I'm thinking I'm not strong enough for this.
