Thanks so much Dena for your help!
The problem if I lower the pitch, my voice still sounds masculine, and if I raise it or leave it as it is, it is falsetto.
Your link was really helpful. I think my problem is with resonance. I have not been able to alter my resonance, despite trying a ton in the past year. I feel a small amount of vibration in or below my Adam's apple no matter where I try to "place/originate' my voice in my head, and no matter what pitch I use.
I am hoping someone has a solution. Thanks!