Help my breast grew to a size A months back and I was able to buy my first bra but now they are shrinking and its nearly flat chest again.

I've been to my doctors they really dont care , I was given a breast examine and the doctor said their developing normall but its been just over a week and they are half the size they was at that time.

What is wrong with my body, the doctors wont investigate and I don't get to see the Nottingham clinic untill May, but so many support network people around me are putting their 5 pence in  telling me it be years before i get treated and one said 7 years. My landlord recently found out that they are secretly been sending letters etc to the clinic trying to prevent me from my treatment, but these support people haven't seen me in over a year but think they have the right to put their input.

Its making me cry, my partner is crying because I'm in pain and we have been talking of a double suicide to stop the pain we are both in.

I'm getting married in about a month and it seems my breast will no longer fill my dress as they did before.

It seems to go one minute grow then reverse until we up the dose , i feel my sex drive return and i start producing more semen when they disappear and that causes major distress I hate the feeling.
Its got the point in which we had to put my dose up about 2 months ago to 20ml weekly injection just to get them to grow again. Its like as men call it "blue balls".

My support network are doing this with out my signed consent forms, and are now trying to cancel my appointment after a year of me waiting for it.

Have you been losing weight?  If you have then decreased size is normal.


Sapere Aude

Quote from: Deborah on March 02, 2016, 02:14:11 PM
Have you been losing weight?  If you have then decreased size is normal.


Sapere Aude

No i've lost no weight at all, its a massive drops in size as well from a A to nothing which is shocking to happen even if someone was to lose weight.  in the course of a week Ive lost half of what was left, through out the day you can even see my breast shrinking sometimes a alarming amount. You should see my partners face even she says that is not normall at all, her jaw drops and has to catch me as i fall to my knees crying.

They don't go back up and continue to shrink unless i up the doses which is getting far to high now to even be consided safe.

If it's not weight, it might be hormonal. I think your next step might be a blood test to see where your hormone level sits.

I can understand how demoralizing this must be for you. I hope you figure this out.

Cindi

Its like I'm immune to medcation for example these are all things in the past that have happened to me .

Pain killers has never worked.

Sleeping pills have never worked, i was in hospital one time and the doctors try to put me asleep and was unable too, they gave me the strongest they had (even injections) to the point they could do no more because it could kill me.

Numbing injections have never worked on me.

Protein shakes never worked to the point I was taking the maximum dose and they gave up and stopped them.

Anti depressants never worked, they tried lots of them.

Quote from: Cindi Jones on March 02, 2016, 02:26:09 PM
If it's not weight, it might be hormonal. I think your next step might be a blood test to see where your hormone level sits.

I can understand how demoralizing this must be for you. I hope you figure this out.

Cindi

They do them 2 weekly and they are always normal, just had one came back normal, its really hard for me as I keep getting pain in my heart but ECG also comes back normal.
They tested my wee and poop last week and that came back normal aswell.

Its horrible when ever i get ill they cant find nothing wrong with me, despite me fainting in front of them once.

Quite often when they start disappearing I feel irritated breast and my testicle feel like what people call "blue ball" and can only relive the testicles by masturbation or sex, its frustrating even for my partner as she sees me in physical pain. Yet I know the medication working down there at least as its shrunk it size greatly over the months.

Right now it feels like my breast are on fire and shrinking super fast, in the last 2 hours they are pretty much gone, now im crying.

Its like I'm the only person ever to suffer from this, I cant find anything online at all.

How frequently is this exactly?  Does your hormone dosage change on a schedule?  It could have something to do with that if your endo is having you change something to reflect cycles, or for any other reason.

I advise you check with the endo asap.  They might give an explanation.  You should log what's going on so that professionals have data to work with.  It helps a ton.

Many *hugs*

Take it easy OP, it gets better ❤

I wonder if your T levels are too high.  Are you taking a T blocker daily?

Without mentioning dosages, list all medications and frequency....

Yes, what you are going through is very possible.  Rare, but possible.

Hugs

Jen

Something you should understand is that in pregnancy a CIS woman's breast will expand due to the changes in hormone levels. The size increase is temporary and at some point they will return to a smaller size. It's possible that your breast underwent this swelling. They will continue to grow but don't forget that it takes 5 to 10 years for a CIS woman's breast to reach their final size. You may still have much development ahead of you. Follow the doctors instructions and be patient while nature does it's work. More hormones are not a guarantee of more development.

Quote from: jessical on March 02, 2016, 05:33:45 PM
I wonder if your T levels are too high.  Are you taking a T blocker daily?

She is. Spiro and EV intramuscular injection. No doubt, her T levels are very low.

Quote from: ChristineShearing on March 02, 2016, 02:30:16 PM
They do them 2 weekly and they are always normal, just had one came back normal

What's Normal? Normal for what?

I've read that too much estrogen can be converted into testosterone.  Maybe your dosage is too high?  I'm hearing the word increase and it's making me cringe.  I'd love to have more estrogen, but how effective is it given the above?

Another thing to consider is maybe measuring with a loose/clothing measuring tape to stay more objective.  I've looked at myself and say "Wow, I am developing really well", but checked with the tape... all in my head, and I was very amazed.  I could easily look the next day or measure another time and say "Woah... What happened here?  Why did they reduce?" even if nothing happened.  I'm not saying that your situation isn't happening to you, but being more objective has kept me from panicking (or kept it at a low), and the information is useful in my opinion.  I hope to report it to others in the future to explain how the progress may work, and I'm looking for possible correlations should any exist.

Have you had any recent changes in your eating routine, or are you keeping track?  Exercise?  This makes a difference even in cis-women.

I hope this may spark some helpful ideas!

Quote from: StillAnonymous on March 05, 2016, 01:24:35 AM
I've read that too much estrogen can be converted into testosterone.

Wrong. Chemically impossible. Estrogen can never convert to testosterone, only the opposite as testosterone can convert to estradiol and androstenedione to estrone. Estradiol can convert to estrone, estrone can convert back to estradiol.

http://www.angelfire.com/sc3/toxchick/images/S/steroidogenesis.gif
http://www.genome.jp/kegg/pathway/hsa/hsa00140.html
http://tau.amegroups.com/article/viewFile/2762/3634/49844

Imagine if this were true...pregnant women whose levels of estrogen are sky high would seriously risk masculinizing not only themselves but their female fetuses. Male prostate cancer patients whose lives depend on hormonal treatment and whose cancer thrives on male hormones (i.e. testosterone) have been prescribed, on occasion, female hormones to oppose androgen, in very high doses. If there was even a remote chance that estrogen could convert to testosterone, this could prove fatal for them and such treatment would never be undertaken.

My estradiol levels have been measured in the 1,000-4,000 pg/ml range and yet my T levels are the lowest they've ever been, 8 ng/dl. Free testosterone levels are undetectable. Since my estrogen increased, body hair is less and I've feminized more, not less.

Don't trust everything you read. Question assertions, do more research.

QuoteAnother thing to consider is maybe measuring with a loose/clothing measuring tape to stay more objective. 

She can just measure width of knot (breast glandular tissue) under areola, from one month to another.

Sorry everyone just  been so depressed this week it's  unreal my  neighbor has become hostile to me and made threats yesterday to hit him.  So depressed can't even focus much, had police give him harassment warning expected more

KayXo gave me some advice so waiting for doctors appointment not that they care much but the new doctor already is more friendly towards helping me.

Be sure to consult doctor before doing anything. Stay safe.