It took a long time for me to accept that I was transgender (although I am still in the closet, and I doubt I will ever fully transition).
Even though I have accepted it about myself, It doesn't mean I like it about myself.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE feeling feminine, and pretty, when I can. I get so much joy and happiness when I look in the mirror, and my hair looks nice, I have earrings on, and sometimes some makeup. I love looking at my hands when my nails are nice and painted. But I feel like I only love those things because of my dysphoria. I don't like that I love feeling pretty (I know, the logic seems crazy, but that is how I feel)
If I could change myself so that I didn't love feminine girly things, I definitely would. It would certainly make life less complicated.
Nevertheless, my acceptance about my gender came down to finally admitting to myself that it is basically impossible able to change my love of all things feminine.
Not sure if this makes any sense.
J.