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Started by allisonsteph, March 10, 2016, 07:58:30 AM

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allisonsteph

Today I go to court where I most likely will be served with a 72 hour order to vacate my apartment for nonpayment of rent. I have nowhere to go and nowhere to store my possessions. The fight for disability benefits is ongoing, but I don't have a solid plan for how to get caught up on my rent.

I cant believe I will be homeless again. The lack of a safety net for people who are unable to work is appalling. Life shouldn't be like this. Life shouldn't be this hard. I don't know how much more I can take before I break.


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Laura_7


Hold on and just do what you can now.

It will get better.

One day you will be on your peak again.

Just see it through ...
one more day ...

The economy will get better eventually ...

look at falling gas prices ...
its completely impossible and the first time in recorded history that prices for all resources dropped while there is more and more paper printed ... its simply not possible ...

there are people who try to fix the economy ... it will work eventually ... just hold on and see it through ... have some hope ...

There is a chat on susans if you want to talk to people ...

and you can call here:
www.translifeline.org


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Devlyn

Big hug! Ditto on the hotline. Being homeless is a temporary problem, don't throw a permanent solution at it. We need you around.  :)

Hugs, Devlyn
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Eva Marie

You are a good person and the world would be a worse place without you here.

This is just some temporary difficulty that you WILL overcome. There is always a way. Find that way.

Please don't choose suicide as an option. Please don't give up on yourself. Please don't let some temporary issue have that kind of power over you. This is just a low point in your life that will eventually pass.

You have come much too far in life to give up now, and you have much to offer the world. You still have many things to see, do, and experience in your life.

You can get through this. Have faith and confidence in yourself.

Stay strong.



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kittenpower

Losing your home is definitely scary, but there are publicly funded programs that will help you find temporary shelter. Stay strong, and you will get through this! Best wishes 😊
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stephaniec

I'm on disability and social security and it is poverty. I live myself with each day worrying about paying rent because I live in the apartment that I have had for 20 years and had a job which I no longer can work. I've been using my savings to supplement the social security , but my savings are coming to an end and I'll probably have to find subsidized housing which has a long waiting list. I'm alright for a while , but my fear is real. There are homeless in my area that I see everyday that live off there disability checks , but can't afford housing and I'm constantly thinking about it. My social worker has helped me tremendously . If you can connect with social workers or government agencies that would help.I know where your coming from with the suicide option, the golden parachute, It's really not an option though because that one more cup of coffee and the one more story that you read on the internet or the one more person that smiles at you each day is so much more worth it than giving up. also  hospital emergency rooms are great places to connect to help. That's how I did it.
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SilverWing

Quote from: allisonsteph on March 10, 2016, 07:58:30 AM
Today I go to court where I most likely will be served with a 72 hour order to vacate my apartment for nonpayment of rent. I have nowhere to go and nowhere to store my possessions. The fight for disability benefits is ongoing, but I don't have a solid plan for how to get caught up on my rent.

I cant believe I will be homeless again. The lack of a safety net for people who are unable to work is appalling. Life shouldn't be like this. Life shouldn't be this hard. I don't know how much more I can take before I break.


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That is incredibly unpleasant, to say the least. As someone who has been (and still is) homeless, however, I can attempt to give you some advice on how to manage things if you care to PM me. Please at least try to manage... Don't give up now.

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Emjay

I'm so sorry for what's going on right now, my heart goes out to you.

Please.......  get help if you need it, call the lifeline or whatever you need to do.  Like others have said:  It's a permanent (and terrifyingly final) solution to the problem at hand.

Your life has so much more value than that, please please please do take care of yourself.  The world would be a lesser place without you in it. 

I would be lying if I said I had never had those thoughts before myself, because I have......  a LOT.  One thing that always pulled me back was realizing that I'm stronger than whatever it was and that I was just too damn stubborn to let anything break me that badly.

Please take care, big hugs!




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Is your Landlord pure business & by the book... or do they have a soft heart?

Depending on what kind of Landlord you have, an honest one-on-one may help... to at least buy a bit more time?


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abd789

Just hang in there... please :)
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cindianna_jones

Quote from: allisonsteph on March 10, 2016, 07:58:30 AM
I cant believe I will be homeless again. The lack of a safety net for people who are unable to work is appalling. Life shouldn't be like this. Life shouldn't be this hard. I don't know how much more I can take before I break.

And to top it off, you won't get health benefits until you've been on disability for a year. Yes, it does indeed seem as though the world is conspiring against you. While you still have phone service, call every food bank and rescue place in the book. Ask them if they can help. Offer to do whatever you can do to help them. I don't know.  I did lose a place to lay my head once in my life and slept in my car. But I had a job and quickly worked myself out of it. Now that I'm on a fixed income, I have no clue how I'd handle it.
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KristyWalker

Please seek help! I am new here and I already view everyone here as a friend you and the other people have helped me so much! There is always a way! Life is worth fighting for!!!! Please seek help, other people have posted links please use them!

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allisonsteph

UPDATE:

The court ordered a warrant of eviction as requested by my landlord. The judge informed me that the entire process does take about ten days, I have to be served with the warrant and given 72 hours to vacate. So I do have a little more time than I had previously thought. I am in a bad situation and at the moment still have nowhere to go. I may be able to get emergency housing, but I need the warrant of eviction to be served upon me before they will. I have done everything I can do, and have been turned away at every request for assistance. I don't know where to turn from here.
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Devlyn

Thanks for the update! That's ten days to come up with a plan and/or look for assistance.  :)

Hugs, Devlyn
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Laura_7


Do you have any friends / aquaintants / people you know you could ask for a place to sleep for a while ?
Offering services in return ... like housekeeping / repair works / tutorial of children with homework ?

Have you asked social workers ? It might be necessary to ask a few times ...

Do you have any relatives you have not contacted in a while ?


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allisonsteph

Received my eviction notice. I need to be moved out by Wednesday March 16. Right now it's 50/50 between taking what little money I do have to move my possessions into storage and buying a shotgun and blowing my head off.


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If you are unable to locate help through the normal government channels, check with your church if you have one or with the police station. Both may be able to locate temporary help or connect you with the agency who can help you.
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stephaniec

You know what, I'm truly sorry this has happened . The worse case you'll be out on the street until your disability comes through. The weather is manageable right now. I live in an area where there is a group of homeless that pan handle and have survived in Chicago weather for the past 20years. No, it's not fun and I've been there. It's not the most comfortable position to be in but it's doable until you can get help from the state.
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Devlyn

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Now is when we really need you to apply this. I've lived outside. Living inside, I've had my utilities shut off and had the water in the toilet freeze. I hated it, it made me feel like I failed. But we haven't failed as long as we keep putting one foot in front of the other. Give your circumstances the middle finger and tell them you're not stopping yet.

Hugs, Devlyn



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Wednesday

Wouldn't be possible to add more visibilty to this kind of posts/requests and help build something like an emergency support network in Susans?

For example, putting it somewhere in the website/forum making the thing more noticeable and giving location and contact data for the people who could offer their help to her.

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