So today I came out to my doctor on the grounds that I believe I might be transgender (mtf).
I'd already told a couple of my closest friends, but knowing beforehand that my friends are such open-minded and accepting people, for me this (coming out to what was in essence a stranger) was by far the harder obstacle to overcome.
Initially, rather than the expected sense of relief, all I felt was a sudden 'oh god I sound so stupid this is stupid you're not transgendered you idiot now shut up, walk home and man the <Not Permitted>'. Now though, several hours later, I'm definitely feeling relieved that I told him. It was great that he was so chilled about it as well, not even batting an eyelid when I suddenly became someone else entirely right in front of his eyes.
I'm in the UK, so this is going to be an impossibly slow process owing to the apparent speed of the NHS when dealing with such matters, but I feel like emotionally I've definitely just taken a step in the right direction. As the old saying goes: 'A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step', and boy have I got a long way to go on this trail yet!
I guess I just wanted to share this with you all as until now I've been sat lurking in the background outside of the conversation, and feel like now would be as good a time as any for me to step on in and say hello ^_^
So, welcome to the world Emily. I'm sorry I've been pushing you away for so long, but from here on out, I think we're going to be pretty good friends
Peace and love   x

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Contratz Emily.
I had a similar experience when telling my Dr - I kept thinking to myself that I was crazy and I just needed to be mentally stronger and I could get over this. I was wrong.
As you said - small steps in a bigger journey.
Take care
Cass

That's wonderful Emily!  I'm very new to this world and I haven't taken this step yet but you give me confidence! 
Hugs,
DeeDee

Welcome to Susan's Place. I am glad that you have started your journey. It will be a long one as all of ours are but it will be well worth it. I completed my transition many years ago but many of these memories of that time remain fresh in my memory. Feel free to ask me any questions you might have and I will do my best to answer them.

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Well done for getting it out. I specifically got a referral to a Pysch that deals mostly in Gender issues and it still took me 1/2 the session to actually say the words.

It is so easy to "Gaslight" yourself and doubt your feelings and thoughts especially when you are prone to overthinking things. Every time doubts come up I try to remind myself just how long I've waited to get this far and how often I've tried unsuccessfully to "man up".

Welcome Emily!

Hey, congratulations! And don't worry, maybe you were just a little nervous. I remember first coming out to my mom and crying and later feeling like "..wtf did I just do". But as time passed and I accepted myself more, things became easier and I kept coming out to everyone and felt more relief every time.

Good luck on your new journey :-)

Welcome from a Blackpool girl.

Hi Emily!  Greetings from Texas!

Nice job "manning up" and coming out, hehe what a dumb saying. 

I know I belong here, it has been a long, hard road to get to the path that I have just started on. Stepping across the line can and is very hard. But once you admit the truth to your self then it becomes much easier to tell others.

I have found that most people are cool when you tell them, so be brave and be whom you are. Pink is a cool color!