Blossom,
To answer your question, I think it must feel exciting. It also must have taken courage to restart. You mentioned in another post having stopped in 2012 after taking hormones for five and a half years. I believe, as I've seen in many people's posts on this board, that what we are is what makes us want hormone replacement therapy, and to resume if we do stop.
More than one of your posts asks how readers feel about what you've gone through and what you are experiencing now. I feel you, like just about all of us, need the support of others who understand. Our backgrounds and environments are most likely quite different, but I do believe that anyone who actually takes the major step of starting and coming back to HRT shares a major core component. Gender dysphoria is not easy to bear.
I know that I wanted to be a girl even as a small child, even when embarrassment and fear of ridicule rooted in people's expectations made me act otherwise. I was both scared and excited when my breasts became sore at around thirteen. I continued to dream I'd discover having been born a girl who'd been transformed to a boy by some magic spell, and getting the spell lifted. I never could understand why boys in stories wanted to grow up fast and become men.
While dysphoria may be covered up with varying success I don't think that it is something that evaporates on its own. In my case hormones helped me slough off much of the need to maintain male mannerisms. It helped me feel safer to conduct myself more as I wanted, in a way that came naturally—and the gradual realization that others accepted me sans the acting is what has encouraged further change and acceptance.
To sum up, I hope from my heart that you too will feel liberated by the step you just took.
