Having just submitted an introduction yesterday, I feel I am embarking on a journey, and this topic is a great place to start. Forgive me for being self-centered but that is where I am now.
When I was a teenager, adults described me as cute and sweet. But even then I did not like the way I looked cross dressing; bowlegs look out of place beneath a skirt. So I went the other way. At fifteen, I grew a beard. My beard is now full and gray.
My hair was short then; my mother threatened to put a bow in it if I didn't keep it cut. It has grown increasingly long (no baldness). When wet, it stretches to my navel, and I keep it in a low, curly, pony tail, both to limit criticism from wife and daughter and because I have no idea what else to do with it. I love my hair and wish I knew how to make it prettier. Except for a little in crotch and under arms, that's about it for hair.
My body is fairly trim. When computer programming jobs dried up, because I am "too old to learn new things" as one HR person put it, because I lack a masters, and because many companies refuse to consider experience over five years old, I took a part-time job at UPS, unloading, sorting, and loading packages. They tried to cut me after the first holiday season. I am slower and not as strong as many, but I stuck it out. Now, six years later, I am a valued employee: I am there every day and I give the job all I have. It feels like compensation for the childhood years when no team wanted me on their side. And I would never stuck it out at a gym that long.
The latest thing is that the medicine I've started taking for BPH, being tethered to bathrooms does bother me, seems to be making my breast grow. They're hardly molehills now. Nobody would notice me bare chested on a beach. But I notice a difference and expect to be on these pills forever, and it is because I am so elated and excited that I sought out this site.
So, my body may bother me as I pursue advanced androgeny, but right now, I can't wait to see what happens next. BTW I already wear some of the shoes cited in another posting in this forum.
It is an honor to be among you,
Simone Louise
