Has poor linda finally gone off the deep end?  Let me explain.

It started as a vague feeling of unease and discomfort a few days ago and turned to restlessness, avoiding the mirror and an unidentified yearning and at this time i'm at the point of screaming.  And it's wonderful, because i finally recognize it for what it is, dysphoria, a feeling that has plagued me my whole life.  Oh my goodness, how blind i have been, but i can take this, it has a name.

In related news, i screwed up enough courage to write my doctor again, this time after five months of silence requesting info on how things are going.  i am still unsure about hormones, i am embarrassed to admit.

linda

Good girl.

Problems are NEVER solved by ignoring them.

Problems are solved by firstly understanding there is a problem. Finding what the question to the problem is. And then finding an answer.

Then follow through with risk management and understanding of have you solved the problem.

Does it work? Well yes.

It is the basis of dealing with all problems be it a bomb threat, a space craft failure, being late for an appointment - or dealing with your gender issues.

Even in making a cup of coffee so you can drink it on the way to work.

Thanks Cindy and for addressing me as a girl 
You know i had just come to accept that there wasn't a definition for a person like me.  Counted myself out i guess but i won't do that anymore.

Linda,

You are welcome.

I was AMAB. That doesn't matter, I'm female. I'm a girl, a woman.

By the sounds of it so are you.

So get use to it young lady.

Welcome to the sisterhood. The social environment where women help other women

It's what we do!

Thanks Cindy - hugs
i just like it so much is all i meant.  Will have no problems getting used to it.