I dont can describe it as well as i wish ... For me transition is a way with no uturn. Like i said i never experienced any transitions, any physical changes. So i decide 2 years ago to do suicide. After a failed first attempt i ive fixed plan for it. I dont know when snd how - but it wil bel happen.

Sometimes i dont know how to handle it. Its a fixed plan but i dont know how to have some good moments, some good time. Its like a shadows always over me.

I hope you don't go through with it. I've had my own issues that nearly broke me, I didn't go through with it, and I managed to get to a much happier and contented place. I hope you have the suicide hotline number and call it when you need it.


     Hugs,
- Katie
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Do you know that point when you dont need any numbers anymore? Its yet.

Once a long time ago I faced suicide. I decide to work through my problems even though there may not have been a solution. I found a solution and today I am happy that I didn't end it. You need to call the hotline if the moment is now or if it's latter, you need to work this out in therapy. Nobody can do this for you and the decision is yours. There is hope if you are willing to seek it out.

Hi Honey,

So sorry you are feeling so down.

We have noticed that you have said you are on Androcur as an anti-Androgen. Androcur is well known to trigger severe depression in some people, and it can be very rapid and out of the blue.

I wonder if you can talk to your Doctor about going on a different anti-androgen such as spironolactone? That may really help.

Always call us and post us when you are feeling bad, we will try to look after you.

My Love

Cindy

Galaxy there are others on this planet who would happily be in your position.
You have come so far and reached so much.
Keep going.

If things do not work out keep going and try something different.
Try a different approach to it all.

You could show us a picture of you so we could give you some hints.
I'm sure you have beautiful eyes.

The conditions people live in now are adverse.
But it will not stay that way.

This place can be like a warm fireplace, where its possible to turn to people, and talk.
Just use it ...


*hugs*