Hello everyone!
My name is Grace, i'm 23 years old studying event planning and tourism. I live in Denver Colorado, and work at a hotel full time.
Accepting my life as a transgender person is really rough, growing up i would have very strong urges and feelings that i was born into the wrong body. I remember when i was little that i would wear women's clothing and my grandma would paint my nails when i would stay at my grandparents house. I also played with Barbies and Bratz dolls a lot and would imagine myself as Barbie. When i met my best friend, i told her i was going to transform into a girl, by going through a machine ( don't we all wish it worked that way) I think i was in either the 3rd or 4th grade. I was dead set on transitioning and that i was born into the wrong body. She told me everything i needed to know on how to be a girl. Then i got really disappointed when that's not how it works:(
After going through later years in elementary school the rest of middle and high school i suppressed my feelings a lot. I came out as gay, which was it and miss with a lot of my family. My grandpa was more supportive than my mom and grandma. However, the feelings of being born in the wrong body and having all these urges did not go away. I became very depressed and gained a lot of anxiety which affected my grades and social life in high school.
Now in college, getting As and Bs in mostly all my classes, i started researching transgender more and have finally come to terms with what i am going through. I came out to my best friend yesterday and she was very supportive. The next step i want to do is to talk to a therapist about these feelings and urges and get a sense on how to deal with and also how to deal with my depression and anxiety.
I've just started playing with make-up and ordered a wig, and it honesty feels natural. It's like walking into Disneyland for the first time when you're starting out, there's just so much to discover.
I came up with the name Grace because i feel like it suites me. My parents were going to name me Jordan if i was to be born a girl. I'm a little torn on the name, but i would either incorporate it into my new middle name or if i decided to use it as my first name instead of Grace.
I'm excited to learn all there is to learn about the community and about myself.
