Yesterday, I posted about how I was  in a total "my world is going to end" panic in utter defiance of my better judgement.  (The "utter defiance" referring to the panic.)

I got home from work, changed out of my "male drag," worked on a TG story, and got a phone call from a susans.org friend (she can 'out' herself if she wants) who gave me a pep talk, and I was feeling okay.

This morning, I'm feeling euphoric, I'm practically giggling (what, me?? giggle??)  I tried nail polish for the first time, and even though it's kind of a mess (I guess I don't have the Troo ->-bleeped-<-(tm) nail polish gene), I get a shiver every time I look at my purple nails (well, fingertips.)

They say when you go on E, you get all kind of mood swings.  Is this what they're talking about?

(Or maybe somebody just slipped something into my morning oatmeal....)

((For some reason, I have this vision of myself as a 15-year-old girl whining "but Mo-o-o-om!!"))

(((I luv parentheses!)))

Yep, that would be it! Try not to do anything too stupid on the down-swings, I know I can get to feeling pretty desperate on them.

Enjoy the ups!

Ok, I've been wondering about this myself.

I've spent today purging my apartment of all the useless nonsense I have. I'm slowly cleaning it out after spending the last week being sad. I've been concerned because this seemed to coincide with the end of work. (My job is seasonal.) When something like this used to happen, it was depression, but I prefer this.

I'm planning on taking a bath later. I've really come to enjoy them.

Mood swings on estrogen?

Oh are you in for some fun....

Lol

I told my wife and my therapist I'd rather have all these crazy emotions that I now have thanks to HRT and finding a way to be at peace with myself, then to be that lifeless, soulless thing I was with only two (expressed) emotions, Anger and Fear. (OK ok... 4 emotions total, Shame and Guilt too)

After a couple of months on HRT, I recall going to my local newsagent to buy a birthday card for a friend. I was browsing through the comical cards when I came across one I thought was particularly funny. I started giggling uncontrollably, and this continued even when I was paying for the card at the register. The girl at the register must've thought I was bonkers! I felt like such an idiot but I couldn't stop giggling till after I left the shop.

Now I understand why it's common for teenage girls to be giggly.