I'd say HRT is going amazingly well. Chemically I won't know until next week as I'm getting my 3 month blood work done on Thursday but I can feel it working.
Good is a long list. My senses appear to have increased dramatically like the dimmer on reality has just been cranked up to max everything is real I can see, hear, feel, smell and taste everything now and it truly amazing. My animal T impulses are gone, my mind is clear, my emotions have been fully restored, I can laugh so much it hurts, I can cry in happiness and in short I feel both real and alive.
The bad is a very short but important list. With my emotional restoration came guilt and more crucially to me remorse. So many things I've done over the years such as being snappy to those that don't deserve it and all the opportunities missed in my life when I wasn't really there. It's a lot to process but my wife & eldest understand and seeing my honest pain actually makes them feel better about the bad times which I am glad of as we can heal together. Oh almost forgot when I'm tired or hungry I can get a bit whiny instead of "RAWR CRUSH KILL DESTROY!!!" which should probably be in my good section tbh but whinyness couldn't really be classes as a virtue - lol
On rarer occasions I can even be a little bit bitchy but fortunately not for long.
Physically skin and face changing for sure hard to call changes as they happen but every day I'm more me when I look in the mirror. Breasts kinda surprised me I mean I knew they could happen but figured it would have been years if ever. I was that concerned with saving my mind I hadn't really given too much thought to breasts. However I totally love them and they really make me feel even more me. They are small but I'm just so happy to have them even if they don't get any bigger I'll still love them because they are mine.
Socially I've not had any negative experiences at all yet. At 182 cm tall I do draw the eye but I have always been attracted to tall girls so I'm fine with my height. I am usually dressed quite plainly in very skinny jeans, red converse hi-tops (regarded as girly here), comfort bra/crop top and a tight but not too tight tshirt. My scent is Charlie Pink for perfume and body spray which is smells as gorgeously pink as it sounds. I accessorize everywhere in pink including work just because I seriously love pink. I don't use make up at all but do keep my relatively short hair (no cuts in over 8 months, just enough for the tiniest of ponytails) dyed, eyebrows threaded & tinted, lashes tinted same for work but with a loose long sleeved zip top to blur my lines a little and because I've always dressed similarly for work for over 10 years except now all my clothes are female and form fitting. Oh and I keep my body shaved, full body laser in progress. My body shape and movements I would say are a lot more feminine leading to almost constant double takes which I'm fine with. Even spotted a few going so far as the package check (I tuck so no luck there people, sorry) so I'm taking that as a good sign. If I get a look from a kid I just smile and they usually smile back. If very small I'll also wave.
In the mirror my face now reads more as FTM than MTF (if that makes sense) and growing closer to simply F every day
My voice, adams pineapple and kids calling me Dad (which i love and will always be Dad) are my 3 remaining tells.
Find out about speech therapy when in for my bloods next week.
Trach is proving difficult to source privately but will ask Doc when I'm in.
Dad they can call me forever but if they want to call me Jerri or even full on Jerrica I'm fine with that too as long as they are happy.
Everyone can see I've made massive changes since Jan'15 but if ever asked I'll be telling them straight that I am a female.
If pressed I will clarify transgender for their benefit but to my mind I am simply female.
I'll not lie about myself unless I believe my life is in danger in which case I'll tell people anything they want to hear.
That said I have had no confrontations or badness which i hope will continue.
No other trans friends though have had offers to connect with friends of friends (technically my only friend and laser guy but I'd consider him a friend as he's totally awesome) but personally I feel I know who and what I am which is my strength rather than my weakness. I do appreciate their offers though as it's sweet and their way of showing they care and want to help.
As for people they can guess me any way they like as long as they are nice to me.
Glasgow has been good to me as have other areas I been to through work and holidays.
I truly love being me and strange as it may sound EVERYONE is nicer to me I'd even go so far as to say they might even like me. Complete strangers smile and talk happily with me everywhere particularly other women.
My friend of 18+ years says it almost seems too easy for me to go from what I was before to now and I'd have to agree but after being mostly dead for 30 years I think I deserve some good luck :-)
