Alright, I think today I'm due for an update. It's been almost 3 months since I posted this message about telling my wife about my gender identity struggles. I didn't know what to expect. I was petrified. I had posted this message as personal ultimatum. I couldn't live like this any longer.
This week was a turning point. I have on my desk the HRT medication that my endocrinologist prescribed earlier today. After 3 months of therapy, my therapist gave me the HRT recommendation letter.
I can't believe it's only been three months since I first decided to go see a gender therapist. I remember feeling how HRT was something that I would never, ever be able to get for so many reasons.
I was dead wrong. My wife has been 100% supportive. Since I've opened my heart and told her the truth, our relationship has changed for the better. We've been shopping together, she's bought me things she thought would fit me, we share jewelry, she teaches me about makeup, she shapes my eyebrows, gives me fashion tips, we talk openly about most issues. I feel so lucky. I don't take any of what happens to me for granted and I'm sure I never will.
There are still some areas of concern mainly regarding the health effects of HRT, but as she told me numerous times about my transition "If you want to do this girl thing, you gotta do it right!"
Going with hormone is what I consider doing it right. I still regularly get misgendered, and that's not doing it right in my books
In a few weeks or months, I will come out to more people, once I feel comfortable about my image, or when I will finally have had enough to care anymore. I will probably change my name and gender on Facebook and other social media profiles.
There might be some backlash after this happens, but if me doing this can help even one person realize that they are not alone feeling this way, and that there's hope, then it was all worth it.
I will start taking the medication tomorrow. I cannot wait to finally start part deux of my life, as Laura.
I know Laura will smile on pictures, [boy name] rarely smiled. I now know why. Laura was always crying inside...
Thanks everyone who helped me get to this stage, you are all wonderful!
I will keep you girls posted
