Hi everyone, I'm not sure where to start. I guess I should start by saying that I was on hrt for about 8 months, then when I was starting to look different, I freaked and stopped. I'm not even sure how long I've been off now, it was either in February or early March that I stopped. So I've been off for 2-3 months. I'm gonna guess my t levels have shot right back up as any changes I had are now gone and I'm back to feeling, well, I guess clouded, angry, and depressed. Even a good amount of facial hair that I had removed has grown back and my body hair isn't as thin as it was getting. I've been thinking a lot about suicide and have gotten into a pretty frantic state. It's the same feeling I had before hrt. While I was on, I was terrified, but at least these feelings weren't as magnified.

So yeah, I think maybe I should start hrt again. However, this time I think I should do sperm banking. I don't necessarily want kids, but the idea of outright throwing the option out was screwing with me while taking blockers and hormones. I'd hope the material I banked was alright since I've only been off for about 2 1/2 months or so. Are they able to test to see if your fertile when you bank? I don't want to wait any longer before starting hrt again, but I don't know if I've waited long enough.

Also, did I ruin my potential in starting for 8 months then having stopped? Since stopping I've lost about 15 lbs that I'd gained in my hips and butt while on e. My butt was getting massive and now it's back to nothing. Was definitely collecting fat around there. I also got breast bud that we're starting to widen, now they're gone...

They should be able to examine a sperm sample and tell you if the sample is good or not. Most likely after a few months off HRT sperm production should return to normal. Sill you should ask because if the sample isn't good, there is no point in paying the storage fee.

Once you go back on HRT your body development should resume. I was on a relatively low dose for over 20 years then off for 10 because of bad medical advice. I am back on HRT for 3 months and I am seeing growth beyond what I had before. You might have lost a little time but that's should be all.

Yeah I had to go back multiple times because they examined the sample every time. Probably go the first time and see what they say about how many more times you will have to go back to get enough to save.