I'm 64 and I've wanted transitioning since I was 4. I know I must move foward and enjoy the time  I have left, but sometimes like today the pain of being so damn wrong is crushing.Oh! how I feel so much better being outwardly what I've been inwardly since birth  . I take pictures of myself on my web cam and see the the beauty of estrogen and how beautiful it makes me feel out of a life of misery. I   went bare legs today  with a dress on and felt my legs so totally soft and totally hairless. I just feel good being female. I'm sitting in Startbucks with all these 20 year old coeds and I feel right. I started this post to talk about my  need for GCS and the reality of my age, but I'll do that another day.

I've never been one to obsess over milestone birthdays like 30, 40, or 50. Yeah? So What? But a LOT changed for me since I was 50. Now that the 60th is rapidly coming around the bend....

Time... ain't on my side

didn't someone say that 60 was the new 40

I hear you Stephaniec. I am 62, but I feel younger than I have for many years. I actually feel younger than I did at 40!  . My referral is in for GRS, although it is probably over a year away. I don't see my age as getting in the way. I am so looking forward to the day! I truly feel that my life just beginning. I often sit in Starbucks people watching and feel that I am just another of the many women enjoying their coffee, conversation or just reading a book. Really feeling part of the community.

At the age of 50 I feel like I'm in my mid 30s. Woo!

I'm 50 and people I meet think I'm 35 which makes me feel good.

yea, the estrogen is pretty weird like that, I look a lot younger than the 64 year old lady.

Time isn't a commodity, something you pass around like a cake. Time is the substance of life. When anyone asks you to give your time, they're really asking for a chunk of your life.

Today is the starting line for the rest of your life. Yes, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday. The problem with the past is that we remember memories we shouldn't, and we don't forget what we should. If your eyes are stuck in the rearview mirror, you're stuck in the past. If you're stuck in the past, you're not looking ahead. If you're not looking ahead, you can't hit the mark of your future

Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful, lest you let other people spend it for you

I'm 62, back at the starting line, and ready to go.  Do I wish I had done this 30 years ago, when I first figured out my true nature?  Sure.  Was that 30 wasted years?  Oh, heck no.  I lived them as best as I could, raised a great family, and had some nice experiences. 

Wild Flower has it right.  The past simply is.  Today I start my new future. 

Maybe some of you can relate, but, I don't think I could have had a successful transition at 20 vs now (38); I didn't realize how many mental obstacles I'd have to traverse to stay sane and grounded through all of this, and my 20 year old self couldn't have handled it, I know it.  So I'm actually grateful that it was now instead of back then!

I still have about half my life to live and that's awesome.

the past for me had a lot of pluses , I guess you just need to come to terms and settle it and move on

I couldn't begin to imagine waiting any longer than I did so my heart goes out to all of you who have waited; I got to 16 and couldn't wait any longer, nearly 22 now and loving it.