Hi! Blame the language barrier if I sound overly dramatic. Also. I haven't been here for a long time so I hope this is ok.

So. Life has been very rough. Violence, hate, ignorance, everything. But I just got an official diagnosis and I will be on testosterone soon. I can also take a male name. I am very happy. But unfortunately I have to party alone. I have hit a huge milestone. I have been through a lot and this is just big but people don't really get it. This has been such a painful journey and now the future really looks brighter. I no longer feel trapped and I am happy because I could endure everything. I am alive, sane and I got what I need to survive in the future. There was another possibility. In my country it is difficult to get treatment if you have a diagnosis of a mental illness like I do. This took almost two years and it could have been much worse.

Yeah, everything is good now. This feels bigger than graduating from any school I have been in. Or anything else ever. Today I got myself some beer and the ingredients of the chickpea salad because I like chickpeas more than cake or pretty much anything else. I got extra chickpeas too so I can eat them a lot. Yeah. I am poor. But happy. Life is going to get better. I just needed to tell someone who gets this.

Yays! Pass the chickpea salad, please! 

Hugs, Devlyn

Chickpeas are the best! I got some noodles too. 

Glad things are looking up. Congratulations!

Except you can keep your chickpeas and you can have mine too.  Not a fan.

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Congratulations! I know the feeling of not having other people who understand the magnitude of your milestones.

Congratulations 


Here are a few materials that might help explain:

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,208438.msg1847638.html#msg1847638


hugs and happy celebration 

Chickpea party! You could make falafel

Congratulations, when I was allowed to start HRT it was more than happiness it was a feeling of finally getting help.

Good morning! (Propably it's not morning there but anyways!) Thanks for the replies. My party was quite wild. I ended up playing ukulele and singing off key but neighbours shouldn't complain since lately they have been very noicy at nights too. I still got chickpeas. Maybe I will turn them into spicy hummus. It's good on bread. I must try making falafel some day too.

I keep making plans for the future. I am getting excited about stuff. Yeah, the feeling of finally getting help. It's great.

Laura, thanks for the link!

Congrats! You and I might actually be in the same country, or close. I have a long history of mental issues as well, have not decided yet if I want to aim for the diagnosis and transition (FTM) but I'm very worried that because of my past (and current depression) it won't even be possible. You getting treatment gives me hope, thank you for posting this! I am not out to anyone yet so it gets quite lonely in here too sometimes.

Congrats! And I have to say that chick peas are indeed awesome.

I ended up making another chickpea salad. I just never get tired of that stuff!

Quote from: Elliot- link=topic=209850.msg1859273#msg1859273 date=146408260.
Congrats! You and I might actually be in the same country, or close. I have a long history of mental issues as well, have not decided yet if I want to aim for the diagnosis and transition (FTM) but I'm very worried that because of my past (and current depression) it won't even be possible. You getting treatment gives me hope, thank you for posting this! I am not out to anyone yet so it gets quite lonely in here too sometimes.

Thanks! If you decide on wanting to go for transitioning it's always better to just try than doing nothing. I recommend talking to local transpeople who have some experience of dealing with doctors etc. In here the doctors and others who make decisions were mostly focused on what is happening now and if I am stable enough. My past didn't matter as much as I thought it would. Still. It took some time to convince them that I won't go berserk if they give me testosterone (this must be one of the coolest sentences I have ever written). I think there is hope for everybody but it can indeed be extremely frustrating.

This trans thing really causes loneliness. Loneliness in company too. I hope  it will be better for the next generation.

Quote from: Pogotractor on May 24, 2016, 10:49:33 AM
If you decide on wanting to go for transitioning it's always better to just try than doing nothing. I recommend talking to local transpeople who have some experience of dealing with doctors etc.

Will do that, it's a bit weird conversation starter but maybe I'll go to a support group.

Keep posting, can't wait to hear how testosterone works for you!

Quote from: Elliot- on May 24, 2016, 03:25:56 PM
Will do that, it's a bit weird conversation starter but maybe I'll go to a support group.

Keep posting, can't wait to hear how testosterone works for you!

Last time I went to a support group we talked about this a lot. Almost everybody who didn't have an official diagnosis were worried about it since so many had some mental issues. I recommend trying a support group. It's nice to see others and talk to them IRL anyway. The feeling of being around so many people who get it is awesome.

I can't wait for getting T either. I wonder if my new low voice will scare the neighbours.