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Does your body bother you?

Started by Jaimey, December 29, 2007, 07:06:04 PM

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Pica Pica

'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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Seshatneferw

Quote from: Jaimey on January 10, 2008, 07:16:38 PM
Are there any other concerns other than looking more androgynous?

Feeling androgynous?

I've come to the conclusion that this is really the biggest thing for me. Last summer and early autumn I thought I'd need to look androgynous, so I started experimenting with physical presentation. Sure, it was fun, and getting rid of the fear of looking too weird was liberating. Still, in the end that wasn't too important -- for instance, using an epilator on my beard resulted in a more androgynous look, but with the drawback that I felt a permanent stubble of new growth (which I couldn't shave because then the epilator wouldn't get a grip on it).

Around October I got a finasteride prescription to delay hair loss -- that is, mostly in order to not look any more male than I do now. What happened was what Simone Louise described (hi there, and welcome!): my nipples started to itch, and soon bulge out. They still don't look even as impressive as what I seen in the locker room on overweight men, but they feel very different from last summer. This, by itself, is enough for me to continue taking the pills.

The episode with breasts has also been therapeutic in another way. The phantom sensations I used to have were very much like how the real things feel, and it's nice to know that there was some sort of basis for those earlier sensations: I'm not delusional, I'm just wired to feel the female bits I don't have. It's kind of nice to have both sets between my legs, even if only one is physically real.  ;)

So, well, for me the big bodily thing is how I feel inside. The big social thing is being allowed to not give a damn about whether others see me as masculine or too feminine, but that's off topic for this thread. Looking the part would be nice, but it's secondary.

  Nfr
Whoopee! Man, that may have been a small one for Neil, but it's a long one for me.
-- Pete Conrad, Apollo XII
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cindybc

Pica Pica Looks like a mischievous little kid in that picture, cute.  ;D

Cindy
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Simone Louise

To the one who asked if I work in Louisville (sorry I can't answer by personal message yet).

Not a wierd question at all. Louisville is an important UPS air hub.

I work and live in a community north of Boston. Yesterday, I overslept (thanks to ther finasteride I now can sleep over an hour at a time), rose at 3:24 am, dressed, and punched in at 4:04 (only 4 minutes late). My boss said that was OK; everyone oversleeps occasionally (phew!).

Thank God for weekends that let the body heal,
Simone
Choose life.
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RebeccaFog


I live in Plymouth

We have no snow on the ground.




Rebis
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Jaimey

Quote from: Rebis on January 12, 2008, 08:55:32 PM

I live in Plymouth

We have no snow on the ground.

Rebis

There's no snow in Louisville either.  In fact, my friends and I were able to walk to the theater to see Enter the Dragon because it wasn't all that cold.  I mean, it was cold, but not THAT cold. 

I love snow...
If curiosity really killed the cat, I'd already be dead. :laugh:

"How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life you will have been all of these." GWC
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cindybc

I do not miss the snow. It snowed only twice here since early December and it was gone the next day.

Cindy
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Shana A

I'm in NH and we have lots of snow. It actually broke previous records for snowfall in December since 1870s... I'm tired of shoveling  :(

y2g
"Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." Oscar Wilde


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Simone Louise

South of New Hampshire and north of Plymouth, we still have snow despite recent rains. Tomorrow, the forecast is for another foot of snow. Tomorrow, I have to start work at 3:30 am. Those of you in Louisville can climb into Next-day UPS boxes and join me tomorrow.

The most fun I had in the snow was crosscountry skiing in Acadia National Park. To be among the mountains, overlooking the Atlantic, with my best friend and no one else around was idyllic. I think I'd like to try snowshoes (I'm such a speed demon).

As for shovelling, we live in a condominium so all the outside maintenance comes out of our condo fee. That's nice. On the other hand, the Association is always sending us letters threatening to fine us for having unplanted flower pots outside, and the like.
Choose life.
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kazeru

Quote from: Jaimey on December 29, 2007, 07:06:04 PM
Does your body bother you?

Yes.  Give me metal, give me cybernetics, unsex me here, shrink me a few inches, shove my animus and persona outside my body and let me deal with things that way.

Funfortunately none of this is [yet] possible, so I can only tinker, shift and exert will on the bloody pile of meat I've been stuck with.  Like Thom Yorke's name being 22% superfluous, I've got a look and parts that I don't particularly want or foresee using in my future.
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Christo

not realy.  I wanna have male parts like any dude.  Its somethin I wanna fix soon but I'm cool w/my body.  no complaints from me or my gf. :laugh:
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Pica Pica

'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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lady amarant

#52
I dislike mine intensely. Especially the really boy boy-bits.
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cindybc

Hi Chris
I think it's wonderful that you have a companion who loves you and supports you no mater what, I have a wonderful mate as well and I don't know how I could have handled everything by myself. In the end I was getting weary of the constant battle for survival, but alive without a soul was like living in an empty shell.

Have a wonderful day

Cindy
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Simone Louise

This has to be a quick posting, because I need to get supper cooking.

I just wanted to say amen to the benefit and power of an understanding relationship with significant other, and to ask how you all handle the discussion and presentation of androgeny at home. My wife (20 yrs in March) is a forceful type A personality who does more than anyone thinks possible. And I am the dreamer. We have talked some about gender issues. She identifies with some of it, is threatened by some, and gets upset at some aspects.

And I would have to say that sometimes one of us adheres more to feminine (or to masculine) stereotypes and sometimes the other.

I could say more, but as I have implied if I don't get the chicken in the oven, I'll be in the doghouse again.

Simone (I've never been anyplace that had so many Simon's and Simone's)
Choose life.
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lady amarant

Quote from: Simone Louise on January 18, 2008, 05:07:32 PM
Simone (I've never been anyplace that had so many Simon's and Simone's)

We are Simon(e). your biological and technological distinctiveness will be added to our collective. Resistance is futile.
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Simone Louise

Here's to the League of Androgenous Simon(e)s! Thanks, and my you reap blessings in return.

BTW the chicken earned repeated praise from my wife. Fridays (our sabbath) I make a meal from a book called, I think, the Cuisine of the Italian Jews which I tweak a little each time. Last night, I used a little barbecue rub on the skin and an apple in the cavity.

Also, I was thinking I feel jealous of those of you who play different sex roles in plays. To play a convincing female would be a thrill for me; I am by nature so clumsy and graceless.

Warm Sabbath regards,
Simone
Choose life.
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Pica Pica

It's fun. I've played schoolgirls, old ladies, femme fatales and a goddess once. There were always females available for these roles, but I was given 'em. I do look hot in a gymslip.
'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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cindybc

Hi Pica Pica

Have you got a pic? I would be interested to see how you looked.

Cindy
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lady amarant

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