I can't. I thought about trying again because I can now put my full attention into it, but after what recently happened, it confirms what I've been saying. getting hassled by my mother about if this is really right for me, plus there is activity, small but still some going on here. I no longer want to be apart because I don't feel like the trouble. I just resigned myself and turned on auto pilot. out of instinct, I slipped and when I woke up, I had new cuts on my leg. plus a pastor in Sacramento literally praised the shooting in Orlando. as my words still stand, humans are demons and vile beasts and I no longer want to be involved. goodbye.

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sorry

  Riley I know the world can seem like a horrible place but there is good out there its just not sensational enough for the news. Please do not do anything rash if you are thinking of harming yourself please call for help. 

Riley,
If you're still visiting here don't let the actions of some hate filled people drive you to something foolish. It's not worth it. It's probably no consolation but many of us Christians are now on the same grounds as the GLBT community. ISIS wants us dead just as bad as y'all. And the pastors praising that shooter do not know the Lord. That is not the Spirit of God that speaks about how more should die. It is devilish and straight from Satan. May God bless.

leaving because I'm tired of sticking my neck out. I already get flak from people as it is and I don't need anyone tracking me. its already to late. calling for help would just be useless and I don't get on the phone nor go to chats for help, not that I'm scared, I just don't care enough to. this hate filled world can burn for all I care. I stay out of the way because its safer that way. I don't want to draw attention and being here is drawing to much attention for me

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you need to do whats best for you.

Hi Riley,

I understand... things are that way. But yeah, nowadays I think: I live my life, and don't bother with anyone else. Just do what you like, enjoy it while it last. Some might say I'm a total freak, others might say I'm a Goddess. And I heard both. But what matters most is what I think of myself, and what I got inside of me.

One consolation is that everyone is alone in some way. Nobody can look inside your head and fully understand you. So everyone is alone inside... this is somewhat freeing for me, because it doesn't matter. There is no point beyond what I point to. And what I point to is the truth for me.